I'm desperate and really need some help...

First off my brother. You have a relationship!! Most men are SOL and I respect you for that. I myself am single right now and possibly from my insecurities, etc.. Think about your relationship first! How she would feel if you had this habit day in and day out. It kind of hurts me to see allot of people go threw this and they have a wonderful woman right by there side.
If I had a girlfriend, close friend, FWB.. I probably wouldn't come back to it because I would fee Proud of myself already.

I'd say find the root cause of your issue. Is it the stress from College? Are you running away from something? Or is it the lack of self esteem or past trauma? Anyway I'd suggest maybe getting out of your college room and out side. That's where we can re wire our self's. I remember back in 2010 I would be outside for more then an hour every day during the summer. I was just chilling out listening to music or just going for walks. It did really help me and I felt more in tune with myself. But I understand if your in lockdown or have to were masks.

What I'm basically trying to say is when you hit those days, you have to find something to re wire your dopamine intake or serotonin levels.

 

As a japanese quote says..fall 7 times stand up 8.
There isnt much to tell you other than get inspired and clear your vision. Visualize your goal, why you want to be clean from p-addiction. The other step would be to tell myself confidently that a new day arises and i would plan my next day as it should be. Make a one-day dopamine fast (search it online- this helps me get up and stick to my routine after a relapse- happens once every 100 days or so i have lost the count ) . All starts within you! If you think you cant take it alone consider professional help. Best wishes!

 

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Treat the suggestions in this post like a restaurant menu. If you order too much on the menu, you can't eat it. Similarly, pick out 3 or 4 ideas that will make a difference to your mental approach or to your practical strategy. Good luck @Starset.

 

I think you have a decision to make that alot of guys on here don't get the opportunity to make my friend. That is, do you want porn in your life to rot your brain or do you want a wanderful and caring relationship with your woman that is healthy and last a lifetime. I don't think you understand the seriousness of your unique condition, if you love her hate porn and get rid of that shit right now, if you continue you will lose her, I have 2 divorces to prove it.