I'm back. I've been on a binge for the past few months. The stress of work and the state of things just overtook me back in April. Today is my new day 1. I'm trying to deal with the shame of it all. I'm embarrased by it all. This is not who I want to be. This is not what I want to do. I'm tired. I'm tired of the guilt and shame. I'm tired of feeling so dirty. I'm tired of not being able to look myself int he eye. I'm tired of the failure. I'm tired of being the dog that returns to vomit.
