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Im an Addict.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by simp1eman, Dec 6, 2015.

  1. Dec 6, 2015 #1
    simp1eman

    simp1eman New Fapstronaut

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    Hello Everyone,
    Let me begin by thanking everyone in this community who have made this possible and applauding people who are trying to recover from PMO. I have been watching porn since i was 15 and now i'm 27. All this time until today kept telling myself i wasn't addicted to porn and never realized how terribly wrong i was. I associated everything with porn, just like cigarettes. If I finish any task, i would masturbate to porn as reward, if i couldn't sleep i would masturbate, if i feel depressed i would masturbate, if stressed i would masturbate. I have wasted hundreds of hours or maybe in thousands watching porn and i feel horrible not utilizing those hours for doing something good, not just for other even myself. Just few days ago "normal" porn stopped being arousing and i started watching more kinky porn like transwoman, bondage ... let me spares the details, but i felt ashamed after i masturbated on those every single time, it is the most horrible feeling i have ever felt that i cant even explain, i can feel my self-confidence going down the drain every single day. So today i started researching about my problem n came across many who have been through same situations. I felt good when i read peoples experience and how they overcome and that gave me hope. I want this feeling to grow bigger n bigger. So today I QUIT PORN, n the first step i believe is to realize i'm an addict. Im a really shy person, and this was not easy for me to write, as im writing this realized the rough journey lies ahead of me,I believe with the help and support from this community will be able to recover from my addiction.

    Im going to update every changes i make to better myself, starting today with NO FAPPING DAY 0. Thanks for reading and please feel free to chat with me.
     
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  2. Dec 7, 2015 #2
    Andyst343

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    Know exactly what you mean, could of wrote your post for me Im the same, but ive had enough ,need to destroy this . we are better than this, im no where near the person I should be, so I decided to come out of the darkness and get my life back ,not giving it to a computer screen no more! I was like you 2 weeks ago until I found this site and thought shit im not the only one. another good site is YOURBRAINONPORN, worth a look if you havnt already.. stay strong and goodluck you have taken the first step...
     
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  3. Dec 7, 2015 #3
    Kiron370

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    Important step of accepting tat you are an addict is done... Em 28yr old, and my story is almost same as yours, mine NoFap of day 7 now.... Last month I started, but relapsed once, got scared of flatline and relapsed, without knowing it's importance... Won't do tat mistake again.... We can keep supporting each other here
     
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  4. Dec 14, 2015 #4
    simp1eman

    simp1eman New Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys, it is good of you to write. Day 7 of nofap n its not been easy, @Andyst343 thanks for sharing about the site, it is really helpful. @Kiron370 yes we should keep supporting each other, I will try to be more active here, Can't believe der is trigger points everywhere, trying to keep myself busy ... Joined the gym, started taking guitar lessons again. Trying to keep myself motivated. We should talk more often, please message me if anyone wants to talk, we can help each other.
     
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  5. Dec 14, 2015 #5
    Kmon5

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    I hate to say that my story is almost exactly like yours except, I'm 53....I never made the connection of porn and pulling away from women...not being able to get an erection with a woman, but being able to for porn.....please don't do what I did....I hope you get better.....my big question is even if I stay away from porn, how do I deal with being able to have real sex ?.....I think I ruined myself...one being so used to the sensation of my hand and two only being stimulated by porn....what woman would put up with that ?.....I'm lost but gotta stay hopeful....you are younger...you can do this
     
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  6. Dec 14, 2015 #6
    calo9025

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    Welcome simp1eman. This story sounds very similar to my story. Pretty much been masturbating since 12, watching porn since about 13 or 14. Would pretty much use masturbation the same way you would. I realized I had a problem a couple years ago but always tried to stop in a half-ass way. It took me hitting rock bottom a couple of weeks ago for me to finally get serious about this and actually go on a "hard mode" reboot. I'm only two weeks in but I can already see the positive effects of it.

    This will be tough, but it is so worth it.
     
    calo9025, Dec 14, 2015
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  7. Dec 14, 2015 #7
    simp1eman

    simp1eman New Fapstronaut

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    We can all do this together, believe me we can change, I was having blue balls today, n I was trying to find some excuse ... But the support from others has helped me from me breaking down today, n if I can then u can do it too.
     
    simp1eman, Dec 14, 2015
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