I started having significant urges since yesterday, I am afraid i might give in if this continues for long, i imagine this balance (one side is resist, the other is surrender) that gets so close to tipping and i hate it. I don't want to relapse. I came so close to surrendering, what stopped me was the shame of what i'm going to write in my journal after the relapse. Then another urge subsided when i visualized the awful moment of the release.
Do you fear the week end ? Being alone and bored ? Just don't do it, there is no point. Be strong, think about your motivation as a mantra, repeat it in your head to not fail. The urge will goes away. Plus, your 34 days inspired me. I'm taking your signature to give me motivation.
Thank your @BlueEye, you have no idea how much i appreciate your comment. I'm rewriting my "reasons why" at the moment. I hope this helps.
Hey just relax start taking so deep breaths in threw the nose out threw the nose it helps me , Also good job on stoping and rembering the shame of doing it and writing in a journel instead in the journal you have to be brutaly honest write everthing that comes to mind can help a lot. You can do this
Your welcome I do that kind of meditation every morning when I get up for 15 minutes it helps relax me just focus on your breathing no matter what pops into your mind
I do a 15min meditation too where i try to stay mindful while saying some mantras (i'm not good at it). i noticed i was restless in my meditation this morning.
Make a strict routine of your day, and follow that plan....Focus not on your problem but focus on your creator....Try not to even think about this....These urges are like a graph, they will surely get down.. You can't get rid of this until you follow your plan...The key to success is stick to the plan. All Great Man have got Plans...Don't be ashamed, Never give up.Failure happens. Defeats are part of life. Come back stronger after that. Get outside. Feel the emerging, full of hope rays of Sun, to evolve. There are millions worthwhile things to do. Be a MaN.
In my meditation I just focus on my breathing I admit it took some time before I got comfortable with it about 3 weeks . Like everthing it takes time . When I am restless I take it as a sign I need to take several deep breathing sessions during the day .Set aside some time say 5 minutes and focus on deep breathing also turn off the phone I hate it when I am meditating and the phone rings.
I'm happy to know that you've stopped before the end. I don't think you should feel ashamed, there is no reason why. Being dissapointed okay, but ashamed, no. Don't. You're fighting against an old habit that brought you trouble. Feel strong, you stopped when you needed. Keep your hand away from you deedee and it should be okay. My fucking brain trick me like this too. "Hey Blue, touch your dick, nah don't fap okay, just touch, faster now, no no no fapping, but, faster, yeah.. faster" This is the best way I've found to keep myself on streak, keeping my hand away from my D.
I will try meditation with no mantras, maybe it's better. I usually find myself daydreaming which beats the point of meditation right?! Thank you @Unflinching I certainly need the encouragement. I still haven't been able to achieve a good enough routine, i usually don't stick to my plans. but i'm trying, i will try more often.
You're right, i noticed that my f*cking left hand moves on it's own (figure of speech) today. i need to be more mindful of this.
thank you @BlueEye @cleanliving81 @Unflinching you have saved me today just talking to you all helped
You saved yourself alone ! We are here to talk to each other. If you find yourself struggling again, just come here and talk, that's all we need.
