I'm about to lose my fucking mind... I have no idea i have been relapsed long gone... Didn't realize

saddist_adult, I hope you'll re-consider your decision to abandon Nofap and your quest to find a way out of this addiction. If you have managed to steer away from spending excessive time on porn sites and related activities, surely that counts as a victory of sorts ? When you are edging as you describe, what thoughts are going thru your head ? (this is important for you to recognize)... as you realize by now- this recovery process is a long term "project", your brain is rewired and your body is fused to this messed up brain and now gets mixed up signals and expectations (?)..I'm pretty sure that you have changed exponentially since joining Nofap and will continue to do so, if you allow it ?.. stay on course..

 

what to do is keep going forward.
if you think quitting NOFAP will do any good for you
then, YOU"RE WRONG

 

You need to get your mind off of sex and start working on your life.

The NoFap hard mode reboot will be the battery for the process.

 

I think , you just have to try to get the real thing , i mean , that is why i start this , even being new here , i think porn and masturbation is easy way to get it done , like.. lets say u want to jump with bungee but u use VR . So , for me thats what is about the nofap project , after my brain rewind from bad the way to get dopamin , find a way , the girl that will like me , and will be ready to share this cool activity ! Thats the way i think at day 6 , but i am probably just to early , if i do 5 years i may try to fck the chair or something Be good man ! Nothing is wrong it is your life ! Sometimes u have to feel the fire to know is burning ! Be good

 

Hey i had relapsed so much time , i know is more to u now after so much time invested , but its not all lose , mistakes are not mistakes they are lessons , nothing is ovet till u do what u say , do not say that ! I think you want to lie yourself, that u just want to jerk it off for today , i mean , if u do it how u gonna feel ? Do u need to go there ? If u need .. i dont know . I have no experience without pmo so long . I think , when i get that long i will do anything to be with girl , even payng , but i will not give permission to touch myself till i need to do sex and do it for real .

 

YOO , ey , it is relapse if YOU say ,it is for YOU ! I dont think is relapse actually i think is not big deal , if i rub the pillow after 1 month, i will say its slip off but ok , wont even restart counter , just will see what trigger it , if i do it in my dream i wont even count it , but if u think is a mistake , than is a leason for u , will u stop play blame game ? It is your life , how to say it more gentle ! If u want to do anything with u its your problem ! I am tryng to make you see that is dosent matter what world think , no matter if u think is relapse or just normal , u can find bright side ! Be good brother !

 

Getting random erection is a sign of healthy function. But if you are rubbing yourself against your pants intentionally, to get pleasure from erections, then you might be technically masturbating, but it depends how you look at it. There is noting wrong with occasional masturbation though, as long as it does not lead to porn for you, and is not done in excess to a point that it negatively effects your life. So I would not worry about it if I were you.

There are multiple ways how to reboot:

Lite Mode (just no porn);
Standard Mode (no PM mode—no porn and no masturbation);
Hard Mode (no PMO mode—no porn, no masturbation and no intentional orgasm, not even during sex);
Extreme Mode (no PMOPS mode—no porn, no masturbation and no intentional orgasm, not even during sex, as well as no psubs)
Monk Mode (no PMOPS mode + other things like meditating, avoiding sugar, exercising daily—basically nofap combined with extreme discipline in other areas of life);
Etc.

You can pick one of these already established and defined modes of reboot or you can do a custom reboot mode; it's up to your needs and your personal goals. If you set out to do the Hard Mode but masturbated, then you might have reset for the Hard Mode but you are still doing the Lite Mode. So if it's a reset or not depends for you—you make up your rules for your reboot.

Also, there is a difference between a reset and a relapse. This seems to be the official NoFap stance on this (and I 100% agree with it):

 

I am glad for you ! I want to say be careful , but if for 5 years that is the worst , you are very good ! Why dont go out to meet some peoples , or find some hobbies , activites , this energy that make u so horny can be transformated into great things ! Things that will maybe lead u to just have sex with human , i dont actually know what is your goal ? You dont want to do sex at all or its just pmo ?

 

If that's what you are talking about then it definitely is not masturbation; it's normal to get erection randomly sometimes when doing stuff, that's just how that thing down there is supposed to work. I sometimes would get random erections too during the day, and if I happen to be walking down the street at that point, well, it is what it is; it's no big deal, think of it as the same thing as a morning wood or nocturnal erections—a sign of healthy function, that's all.