I want to start afresh

I been in pmo from 11 to 17 I want to start afresh GOD help me

 

I fucked up because I thought you needed masturbation to learn how to satisfy a woman but I was wrong now I want to start afresh GOD help me
I have done this before NoFap challenge but I relapsed because I maturbate for 5 secs I wanted to increase the time before ejaculating I tried using a rubber I lasted 8 mins but using hand I only last five seconds so I continued thinking I was helping myself but I was wrong am now emotional detached
I want to start a NoFap challenge but I hope I will be able to satisfy my wife in future please can you advise me