I want to do it but i dont know why i cant do it?

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Its nearly a year since i joined this forum and my story is
I am an indian guy who first saw porn at age of 15-16 and started wanking at age of 18-19 i would have started fapping very early but then i felt it likesin and just enjoyed watching porn but then i did it once in my 18 and since then i m addicted also i wank only when i see porn vary rarely i just wank without watching it and i m about to be 23 now and i still am not getting out of this problem it was on last may i joined nofap forum i saw some info about it on youtube since then my journey is
I got an AP a jewish girl i think i progressed from day 7 to a month to a 45 days and to 73 days longest and she got cured i think (her profile reads something betn 200-300 days) and so did i think i got cured too but......
Then i thaugt i should move on should not visit site and control myself and i was wrong i think didnt have much control becoz i did 40 days then 35 days and i started fapping frequently i thaught i just needed an new AP and i made a target of 365 days and posted in AP section highlighting my target and got two wonderful new APs but things didnt go so well this time i dont know why,
i started felling like when i started nofap again made it to 18, then 20 and now its 4,2,1 i dont know why ??
I really dont know what is happening i m just confused and thinking am i never gonna get cured and what should i do?
I think i have tried everything and it used to work for me few days ago but its not working now and i dont know why?
I had developed control over myself used to know whats bad and used to refuse doing it but now things are really weired.
I know its wrong before i do it but still i do it and have vary bad feeling afterwords but not before.
Even a smaller urge is enough and i end up watching porn and eventually mastribute.
I am just confused and irritated and i dont know what to do its all questions???
Really need help and suggestions.