I wanna give myself a chance

Hi everybody!
I use to masturbate since I was a child and when I was about 11 I started watching porn.
In the last years, this has become a problem for me, and I tried to quit this bad abit several time by now, everytime without any success. I have a girlfriend, and we have been together since october 2015. Well, she is the most important reason that pushed me to think that what I was doing was wrong, together with the fact that I want to be a better person, not only for other people, but also for myself. So, in the last year I started finding information about the effects that excessive masturbation and porn addiction have on my life. I didn't imagine that it was that bad! In January I began trying to resist to my impulses. The most I got was 9 days without porn and masturbation, for two times consequently, and in that period I noticed that my sexual performances had little improved. Yes, I forgot to say that I have sexual problems. I suffer from impotence, and that causes me many problems with my self-esteem. I realised that probably my sexual problems are due to the fact that I masturbate and watch too much porn. My girlfriend never blamed me for doing this kind of things, she is very comprehensive and know how difficult can be recovering from bad habits, but I want to change, I really want! My biggest problem is that I have not willpower, I tried so many times to quit with this shit, but I have never been able to do it so far. This is the reason why I am here. I know that other people here are trying to get rid of this kind of problems, and maybe we can do it helping each other in this journey.

 

Thank you, I really want to. Good luck!

 

Congratulations man. Don't give up! Thank you for the support