I visited prostitues...again after 5 years

As the title of the thread explains, a couple years ago I swore off visiting prostitutes since I am a religious muslim man. However, after these years of being single still, I longed for female touch.

spoiler alert ahead....... There was not any penetrative sex involved, rather she played with my genitals and I hugged her.

However, I feel now guilty and ashamed for doing this and breaking my promise. After swearing off visiting prostitutes I kept masturbating by having a relapse every 10 days or so which were heavily induced with cannabis most of the time. I also noticed that my P preference shifted gradually to more extreme forms of femdom.

However, masturbating made me feel less guilty than visiting prostitutes.

I hope I can sleep today with the guilt and shame that I feel now.

Just wanted to put this here

 

I just needed some intimacy at that moment, I thought if I would M again, I would feel worse, the drawback of visiting a Prostt would be less of a feeling of a drawback but I was wrong