Hello. Two days ago I relapsed after not watching porn for One Month en Twenty Nine days. This was my longest streak yet and somehow I managed to mess it up, and after watching it once I looked it up three more times in two very short evenings so all and all it's pretty clear to me that I am still in de exact same spot and it is depressing. I'm in need of some advice here. Here are some details about my streak: 1.Withdrawl symptons were not severe, I did not look or search for porn until the very last moment. 2.I still did masturbation, but less than I used to. 3.I did some excerise but not as much as I should. 4.I did see pornographic images and short videos on snapchat during my streak, however I did not look these things up myself. I have a very sexually active collegue who loves to boast about the girls he f**ks and the ones he's about to, and he just shoves his phone in my face to show it off so its hard for me to avoid it. 5.And finally I am in a relationship myself, we are sexually active about once or twice a week and she knows about my issues. So.. What went wrong here? The big thing I can think of is the snapchat thing, I would not be obsessing about porn or anything of the sort until the collegue showed up with his phone. But here is the problem: I can't tell him about my issue, I just don't want to. I do not know the guy well enough to tell him something personal, and because of the nature of my line of work, I can't always avoid him either. So something inside of me needs to change but how do I do that? I thought I was doing well but I was not obviously. What can I do better in my new attempt? Advice would be very welcome.
Not an option i'm afraid, it's only that one guy and telling him will spill over to the others and before I know it the entire company will think i'm a freak and a pervert. I have decided that i'm going full monk mode this time around, I still did masturbation during my last attempt so maybe there was to big of a connection between the M and the P and that made the relapse easier? Not masturbating is going to be difficult i'm not proud to admit that, but maybe if I conquer that part the rebooting will have more of an impact. I'm almost 3 days in now.
I completely understand you not wanting to tell the colleague something that personal, even if only for the chance of him blabbing it around. I have been struggling with my issues since I was 14 years old, and about a year ago I mustered up the courage to tell my wife. That actually was the best thing I ever did, she was shocked, but genuinly tried to understand it/me better. I usually am P free for about a month before I relapse again. Everytime it happens we talk, and her support is what gets me through feeling depressed and crappy. What I mean to say, idk how much you tell your partner about it, but try to really open up and talk about it. Maybe it helps you the way it helps me. You definitely aren't back in the same spot btw, you reached a new milestone, and you can do it again and even better. Good luck.
Thank you for your reply. Our situations are pretty similar in fact, I did already tell her and because of that, I reached a new milestone. Still broke the streak tho.. But I will try to stay positve and give it another go with some adjustments. Good luck to you too man, thanks again
Every recovery has its setbacks, but don't let negativity take the lead. And of course something that has been said a billion times: communication is key
