I think ive lost to porn

Hi, sorry to hear you are struggling. Look, instead of saying you're lost and you can't quit and you are trying to avoid and so on why not check your stinking thinking (as we say in the twelve steps) and delete all apps that are triggering you like reddit etc, stop peeking and change your way of thinking, try. Instead of avoiding think in terms of approaching. Where do you want to go? Who do you want to be? What can you do to succeed. Even if it feels cheesy at the beginning say to yourself: I can do this. I found many ways how not to do it. I don't give up. I believe I can do it. I strongly believe I can free myself of this addiction. I value my worth and self-love more than anything else. I am a lovable human being. I am worthy of love and belonging. I grow in strength each day, even when I relapse, I get back up and keep the direction towards freedom. I am only human. It's not about perfection, it is about progress. I am determined to live a sobre life. I promise to myself I will stay clean only today. Tomorrow is a new day.

 

You should not browse reddit if there is chances of seeing that stuff. Dont fall to the mind control those type of genres have. It is all fake and oversexualised.

 

Yeah, dont we all. Stop using reddit then. Stop using everything that can have that content. It is Hard and harsh but it is the only way out.

 

Do you think these desires arise from feelings of inadequacy? Like do you feel like you're not masculine enough to compete with these men and the only way forward is to "give up" trying to be masculine? I've felt this way before.

The way I fixed it was 1) working out and getting hella jacked, and 2) going on Thunder's Place and learning how to make my dick bigger.

These things take time, but what's important is the knowledge that you don't have to "give up" and you aren't cursed to be inadequate forever.

 

Your sexuality hasn't changed, this is just what your addiction tries to make you believe.
Wouldn't u tell your enemy there's no point in trying?

This is the addiction that i have been struggling with since i was 13 aswell, i'm 21 now.
I know what you're feeling and the people that make this type of porn really know what you're thinking and how to confuse your brain with their words..

I have only started taking NoFap more seriously since this week but i have gone 14 days once without PMO . years back and i can tell you that this BBC fetish fades after a while.
You might neeed more or less time for this fetish to subside but never give up. This is not you. The real you is caged inside waiting to be freed but it can't especially not if u give up on yourself

 

The feeling of being internally hurt by the bad habit of masturbation is very much a feeling of losing all moral values. It makes people lose sight of hope and the motivation and enthusiasm to continue fighting. You need to recognize that the way you feel right now is a result of your "energy body" being hollowed out by the evil habit of masturbation. Masturbation hurts your internal organs, your brain, and your physical body. And then when your physical body is harmed, your mind is also harmed. Your mind and body are one! You are hurting your body, so of course you are going to hurt your mind as well.

I have a good book I'm reading that explains all this stuff. Let me know if you want the link to it.... Freedom from this fetish is just a few epiphanies away.

 

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There is no secret from yourself - it's an addict's trick, as if hiding in the dark from you in your mind. You need to shine a bright spotlight on the addict self whenever he seems to be lurking (strategy from a recovery book you might read: George Collin's Breaking the Cycle). Personify the addict like a little creepy figure - that way you can catch his every move, as opposed to dealing with an intangible mist or formless vapor inside your mind, stinging you into anesthetization (so you won't say "no"), and leading you to choose the addiction all over again. One needs to act against the addict before the addict anesthetizes, a point of difficult return in saying "no". The content of your addiction, however twisted, is somewhat irrelevant - there's really no shame in whatever it is. All additions can and do get twisted into weird shit - but that's your addict self, not your true self at your center who needs to fight the addict. But, the principles for recovery of all addictions are essentially the same. You can overcome this. BTW, twisted fantasies of same sex attraction (SSA) have nothing to do with shifting sexual orientation, but you do want to deal with this now. Any self-perception that you have of a diminished masculinity or wounded masculinity within yourself seeks to be healed. With twisted porn, one seeks healing in the wrong place - almost like a highly symbolic dream image - we seek to feed off the masculinity of another tough alpha male (bbc), quite symbolically, even, from his member. We're trying to feed on masculinity to restore what we may perceive we lack inside. All along, the real place for finding and restoring one's inner masculinity is from within oneself (not from another man) - How? By not bashing yourself, by healing from any past male bashing you may have endured, by learning to love and embrace your true and dignified manhood (outside of addiction) all the more from this day onward, by not reverting to faulty porn imagery. Hence, we no longer need the escape of PMO addiction, which only covers the wound momentarily, but doesn't heal it. Again, it will be a journey and won't fully happen overnight - the journey itself may teach you many other things and inner places where you need healing or exposing other reasons you cling to addictive behavior. It's quite fascinating, actually, as self-awareness sinks in and opportunity to grow presents itself. That's what life is about. We want to die to the addiction naturally, but not to life in our true self. Again, you can do this.