What I do when I feel that starting ( I'm a low bottom pm+ addict so if I don't m love the chains upfield a lot it'll be too late before I've even noticed) is that I have many friends who are also sober pm+ addicts whom I call to practice honesty by saying what to hugs are going through my head. I still after years of no form of pm or sex with partners other than the spouse feel embarrassed about "having to" do this sometimes, sometimes embarrassed about the disgusting things that p op p into my brain, but that is just pridefulness talking. If it works I can't afford to not do it . Truth is the opposite of what my mind yells at me, as is so often the case, I don't HAVE to I get to, it's a privilege and it keeps me cleaned out. Sometimes that clean and sober feeling seems like how a gutted fish would feel but again that the misleading mind, it loves to exaggerate. One time my dishwasher was broken and when I tried to fix it I got a little shock, I caught myself saying I felt like I was in a war zone and I just busted out laughing at the ridiculousness of what I had just said. What a joy to let myself out of the prison of the mind. Of course calls like I do are not the only thing. I hope you find something that works for you friend!
What happened, what has triggered you? It is better to express it all here then go after P. Trust me it can help
Relapses are the same. You won't get something out of doing it. You know how you will feel after it. You know you have spent many hours of your life on it. You know they are better things you can do with your time. Exercising, affirmations, reading, art, many things exist that you can replace your time with instead of porn. Relapsing will not change a single thing for the better. It will simply put you back into the cycle of: I feel terrible that I just relapsed, so I will abstain. I've abstained for X days, maybe it's okay if I give in. I feel terrible that I just relapsed... You know the cycle. It's difficult to get out of.
One suggestion is to grab a piece of paper and write down exactly what you think and feel during those moments when you get strong urges, compulsions and are about to relapse. Put this piece of paper or notebook at your computer where you normally relapse. Not only do you take focus and energy away from porn at the moment, you really get a chance to slow down, stop up, put your thoughts and feelings into words and soon enough if you look careful, you might even be able to analyze exactly what triggers you in those moments. Writing is an excellent activity/substitute to steer the focus and thoughts away from porn.
What does the panic button do. I am not near a relapse but I am curious and I don't know what exactly it does.
Click on it and it will take you to inspirational quotes or practical advice to help you when temptation is high. Try it now and get familiar with it.
just remember the evil the porn industry perpetuates, I think it is going to help you. You don't want to be the fuel for their evilness and exploitation.