i think i have a lot of potential, but ive got to fix myself.

started to take NoFap a lot more seriously back in novermber, have had some good streaks but also some relapses. the biggest concern i have regarding my PMO addiction is the brain fog / lack of cognitive function ive been under. been watching porn as a habit since i was 15 years old, and have consistently had awful academic experiences since then. i've always been a horrible student, always unable to focus on a task, unable to process / retain information, unable to understand concepts or think critically, etc. i've been to college a total of 3 times and ive flunked out every single time due to poor grades and poor performance.

but i believe i've identified the problem. i've always though i wasnt smart and just didnt have a fully functioning brain. but now i'm realizing, the amount of porn and masturbation that has led to a lack of mental clarity and brain fog could be the underlying reason for my awful performance in school. i think that, if i remove PMO from my life dilligently, heal from porn, fix my dopamine and allow for my brain to reboot, i could actually be a decent student and get rid of those mental blocks that didnt allow me to reach my potential. i think that if i take the time to reboot, heal from the brain fog AND make real efforts to be a better learner, i think i could actually be a really great student and gain some knowledge.

i've got goals i want to reach that involve quite a bit of schooling, and im not getting any younger. i'm gonna take some time to heal, and then go bacl to school when i feel that my mind has been conditioned / in a state that is actually fit for learning. just hope i can heal sooner than later. currently on day 5 of NO PMO, wish me luck lads.