I scared them all away. I was bitter, and angry, I hated myself, I hated this thing that I am, this horrible body and this disgusting mind that I am trapped in. I tore away at people with my words, with my hatred. I attacked people and made them hurt. And when I breakdown all I see is red, all I want to do is to hurt. I don't feel in control. I scared everyone away. And I don't know; is there a way back from showing people the monster you are inside? The twisting, writhing, pitiful creature who sees you and just wants to snuff out that annoying little light behind your eyes. It's not even like I care what they are saying I just want them to end. Want them to cease. To halt. Finish. Die. When you show people that, and they run away from you scared. Is there a way back from that kind of lonliness? Am I just doomed to be this... thing; forever?