I need help just like everyone here i need to be free

Hi,
We all guys has the same issue. Don't worry. Just come out from the guilt. Take calendar and mark each winning day. You mentioned that you have a busy life style. So when you are getting free time to watch or crave about porn. Be prepared for that filthy moment before your mind involved in that trap. preparing or escaping from the trap on that critical time is not useful, it will create you monster and next time you will spend more time on porn.
Break the addiction slowly. Never be alone. If possible don't sleep alone.

 

We can Do this ! We can kill this addiction ! Have Faith !

 

Two years ago on this very date. I had to tell the truth. That truth caused my 5 year relationship to end. She eventually left me nine months later. Shame, guilt and regret is what I live with. Never learn a lesson with regret. I cried when I woke up, I cried in the shower, and I cried before I went to sleep. I would cry 5 days out of the week for at least 9 months straight. I do not over exaggerate about me crying alot because it is the sad truth. It felt like someone died. Its been over a year since she left and I still cry but not as often as before. I only went out 5-6 times to socialize out of the whole year. I stayed in my room everyday like it was prison. Dreading about the past, over and over . A nightmare that wouldn't end.


Suicide was on my mind for months. I just couldn't stop thinking. I couldn't stop replaying every bad moment. Porn and games was the only time where I didn't have to think about anything. Everyday I would play games, watch porn, and cry. I was a living zombie. Two years of true depression is something where I wouldn't want anyone to have.

I hit a breaking point in my life. I no longer want to dread about the past, in order for me to stop thinking about the past is to stop PMO . I no longer live in a fantasy because in reality, we live in the moment, and what we do in that moment will affect our future. Make a bad decision now better expect another bad decision later. Talk negative to yourself now best believe you'll say it again later.

You and I and everyone else live this life in this world. There's nothing wrong with the world but we choose to make it a cold world. There's nothing wrong with my computer but I made poor decisions on my computer. Everyday is a new day and literally anything can happen. I might just sin the next day, who knows, but if i do I willremember about my shameful past and once I come to my senses (after you pmo) that depression will come quickly. It's so painful that im willing to give up anything to not feel that pain again.


Someone on NOFAP asked today , " what do you desire?"

My desire is to not feel that shame.

 

I feel your pain man. Losing a long time partner affects people differently, yet I understand you and feel your pain because something close to what you describe happened to me as well. (didn't cry that much though) My advice: take the good from your past experience and relationship, let the bad parts be only a lesson. There is no point in crying over spilt milk, especially when it's been 2 years, am I right?

Forge ahead on this new path you've drawned for yourself, be everything that you can be!
If you need us we're here!

 

Great..we need to read good motivational articles every day. Daily we have to read myths, effects of porn so that our porn pathway will be reset. Don't leave brain alone otherwise attacks can be happened at anytime anywhere. We have to be alert till we completly come out from the filthy trapped land.
Do good things, give free time to orphan kids or poor people. Help them as much as. Aaaah! It will really give us peace, relax and we can survive happily.

 

Hi here!!! I am new

 

Hey Tina123! You can make a post here:https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?forums/newbies.6/create-thread as your introduction so that everybody gets to know you!

Welcome, welcome and welcome! I hope you will find the answers you seek and reach the goal you have chosen for yourself!