I need an advice

Hello guys,
so I've been struggling with masturbation/porn since my childhood(I think it started when i was around 12). Now I am 23 and there've been many ups and downs. My longest streak(no porn & masturbation) was around 6 months after that I unfortunately relapsed and things went kind of in the wrong direction(started using sex toys, watching porn - before I watched only pictures). There was usually 2-4 day period between my relapses. However I can say that currently I've managed not to fap for ~6-7 weeks - also no porn or insta models(etc..) at all but sometimes when I was scrolling insta/fb I saw some pictures of girls in bikinis but I just kept scrolling. So to sum it up I would say that I have problems with masturbation and sometimes it affected my daily life.

Now here's my question. I would say I'm doing pretty fine, there also urges sometimes but I can handle them. However what's your opinion on masturbation WITHOUT porn or any related stuff ? (for example pictures of insta models,..) Just fantasty or thoughts. And what about masturbation with sex toys but also WITHOUT using porn ?

Thanks in advance for your help..

 

So as I said before - my time period between relapses were usually 2-4 days, sometimes there was time period where I fapped day by day and sometimes I also went 1-2 weeks without masturbation. When I went 6 months without PMO it was due to my priest - actually I'm a christian and therefore P + M is considered as sin. I think that 1-2 weeks ago I read two books which mainly described pornography addiction, masturbation, sex addiction,etc.. Basically I found out that if somebody is addicted to porn then he has difficulties in real life sex so this is now my main motivation not to watch porn again - I started to watch porn only 1 or 2 years ago before that it was just picture and to be honest when I was watching porn it was just girls with sex toys. I didn't want to watch "standard" porn(male with female) since I knew it would get only worse and I would be forced to look for another types of porn. I've never had any girlfriend or sex so I'm quite not sure if I am somehow affected by it in terms of real life intimacy. I've been without PMO 6 months and I still remember that great feeling not watch porn or masturbate just to waste time or just because I was bored. But eventually I relapsed and now I also have some urges to use sex toys but this time only without using any porn or related stuff so I wanted to hear your opinion on that. If you're wondering why I started using sex toys then my answer is quite simple and maybe embarassing: I would say I'm kind of impatient and I wanted to spice things little bit and wanted to know how real life vagina feels like - I know that no sex toys is 100% similar to it but there are some versions which are close to it.

Btw one more question - I also suffer from premature ejaculation(when using sex toys I only lasted for a few minutes if I was lucky). Can it be caused by watching porn or simply insta models + by often masturbation ? if yes, how long does it take to recover ?

 

Well buddy, I'm not sure. I was going to church 3-4x per week, praying almost every single day. I was at high school during that time and we went to Spain for a week and during that week I "dropped" my habits which I mentioned and I also got kind of cocky - I felt like I'm already recovered but then slowly I was getting urges - which I didn't have since maybe my second month of nofap and eventually I relapsed. To be honest my current streak is so far the longest since I relapsed after that six months of nofap..

 

Guys, I need your help. Last days I've been feeling sexual tension. I would say I'm horny in some way.. Should I fight for another days or do M using sex toy but WITHOUT porn ?