I made it to 23 days.

Im not a first timer of trying this.

I did two earlier attempts that were just words, because knew I be back, when life got hard or more stress and negative things started to happen.

This is the first time I feelt I belivied , struggeled to certain point and went all in. This started 23 days ago when I knew porn went to far.

This time was very different, because I think I got a long flatline for some reason. I just went by. And then I started working through crazy urges.

I saw this guy on youtube how to work thourgh the urges and I feelt it worked.

I feelt strength and good after making it thourgh them. Crazy dreams aswell.

I feelt a Much stronger man or a potensial to be something/achieve something I didnt belivie before this.

A empowering feeling I experienced, very deep voice, confidence of change, clear mind and clear to speak.

Alot of Negative went posetive.

Real Attractions. I didnt get lost in crowds. I was very centerd in myself and very direct.

I am in bad Shape now. I rode a bike for ride and suddenly I just wanted to climb everything with power and motivation.

I feelt emtional pain, spiritual pain sometimes very deep. Some love I need in my life that s missing , thats not a pixel screen or fantasy.


So when I relapsed now after 23 days I feel absolutly no shame. I was accutaly meditating and edged too the point of holy smokes. That orgasme was amazing only it deserved a real woman.

I signed up now. Its more to this: more to feel, more to heal and to grow beyond barriers of a sex addicted mind.

I want this to become as real as it can get. So I can have a better progress. So I can have success.

I think its important to have a sense of humor about this aswell. One crazy rabbithole to get out off.

Thank you for reading. Respect to all of you.