I m not addicted but urges are there

Welcome to NoFap. Masturbation can make depression worse than it already is. Step #1 is to recognize that what you're doing is wrong -- and you already have that, which is great. Step #2 is to do something about those sexual impulses. You can't stop sexual images from appearing in your mind, but you can fight them off. One of the things that often works for me is to take my mind somewhere else.

To me, sexual images will come out of nowhere. I can be in the middle of anything, and without warning, BANG! images will shoot into my head. I used to be addicted to pornography, but the memories I have from that part of my life are still quite strong. I set my mind on something that's appropriate. When you've got a picture of a woman/man in your mind, set your mind on something that's inspiring, so that that will overpower the sexual images. There are images that you can set your mind on that will kill sexual images.There may be ones that are more powerful to you than to me, but you need to find out what they are. The most soul stirring image I can think of is Jesus Christ on the cross. Another image that often inspires me is in WW2, when the allied forces invaded Normandy.