I just had sex and it's all a lie

So you broke a 430+ hard mode reboot for real sex?

 

No shit. Best to channelize libido into presence and love. Love rooted in lust is shallow and energy draining. Lust rooted in love and respect is deep and fulfilling.

 

The Ancients were right. Thank you for reminding us
All the best to you

 

You might be feeling a spiritual emptiness, consider adopting a religion.

 

Wow congratulations for reaching 430 days of semen retention! It's more than a year man, congrats!

But yeah I guess we all understand this feeling of emptiness. Before releasing we think it won't be that hard, that it won't affect us that much. It is after we release that we realize it hits us hard and notice in which good state we were previously - specially after reaching 100 days and more.

 

Musta been a really shitty lay for all that.

Get you a good woman, start a relationship and try again. It is good.

 

Don't feel so bad about it. If you truly did 430+ days on hard mode, it was an
achievement in and of itself.

Probably you were bursting at the seams to get some action, right?

 

Haha, yes I'm sure she did everything leading up to that moment...

Come on man.

 

I think this is merely what’s called “Post Nut Clarity”.

 

This is, unfortunately, a real thing. Making decisions without sex in the equation.

 

Sounds like a Proverbs 7 scenario.


At the window of my house
I looked down through the lattice.
7 I saw among the simple,
I noticed among the young men,
a youth who had no sense.
8 He was going down the street near her corner,
walking along in the direction of her house
9 at twilight, as the day was fading,
as the dark of night set in.

10 Then out came a woman to meet him,
dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent.
11 (She is unruly and defiant,
her feet never stay at home;
12 now in the street, now in the squares,
at every corner she lurks.)
13 She took hold of him and kissed him
and with a brazen face she said:

14 “Today I fulfilled my vows,
and I have food from my fellowship offering at home.
15 So I came out to meet you;
I looked for you and have found you!
16 I have covered my bed
with colored linens from Egypt.
17 I have perfumed my bed
with myrrh, aloes and cinnamon.
18 Come, let’s drink deeply of love till morning;
let’s enjoy ourselves with love!
19 My husband is not at home;
he has gone on a long journey.
20 He took his purse filled with money
and will not be home till full moon.”

21 With persuasive words she led him astray;
she seduced him with her smooth talk.
22 All at once he followed her
like an ox going to the slaughter,
like a deer stepping into a noose
23 till an arrow pierces his liver,
like a bird darting into a snare,
little knowing it will cost him his life.

24 Now then, my sons, listen to me;
pay attention to what I say.
25 Do not let your heart turn to her ways
or stray into her paths.
26 Many are the victims she has brought down;
her slain are a mighty throng.
27 Her house is a highway to the grave,
leading down to the chambers of death.

 

Man. I so feel u. I ended up like this. Twice. After 300 days hardmode. Its so devastating. Nobody who has not lived thru this has any idea. And I always ended it with so bad ppl. One girl spit my semen out in a toilette... havent seen her any more in my life, I also fell ill short after because of how devastated I was physically and mentally. What a purgatory.

And even if I did not nut, the act of sex was extremely underwhelming, even after 100s of days hard mode and many years of not seing P or doing M. Sex is so over rated.

 

Can't lie it is more to do with the way you went about doing it, having sex with a girl you actually like is heaven and anyone saying otherwise has had trash sex. Anyway you are right having casual hookups makes you feel empty inside but its addictive