I just ended a relationship with a girl like an old western movie, and that makes me sad.

Girl I met online, she is a lot like me. She lost a lot in these past few weeks and/or months. I never met her in person.

I found out what she wanted from me today, she wanted me. She wanted to be taken care of. Either that or she wanted my kidney. I told her about my plan to leave here and go far away, and she said she wanted the same. I told her I hope she finds what she is looking for, and she told me that what she wants is someone to run away with and start over somewhere new. I got the clue.

So, I had to do what I had to do. I told her my journey is one that I need to walk alone, at least for now. I wasn't lying to her. My journey will cause me to likely be homeless for awhile, but at least I will have freedom and an opportunity to grow like I need to.

The odd thing was how bad it hurt to do that to her. I really do have feelings for her, but I knew that I needed to end it, at least for now.