I had a dream last night , it made me sad .

Amigo difícil tu situación....mira acá hay personas esclavas de la adicción que nunca han tenido pareja ni han tenido sexo ...yo tuve sexo a los 27 años y fue en pareja, actualmente tengo casi 3 años de separación y aún ella aparece en mis sueños... Pero a pesar de todo -- confío en superar lo -- Esa mujer ya hizo si estilo de vida en la calle, tienes que pensar en algo estable y real ... Te deseo lo mejor ...

 

I think it's your brain playing tricks on you to give it its dopamine. And for the escort, I doubt she's thinking about you right now. Remember she's a service worker and she has a lot of other clients.
And for your dad, I'm sorry about that man. It's life man. We come, live and die. And life goes on....
I'm about to be 32 years old. From 2016 to 2022, family members are dying left and right. Uncles, granpa, cousins, loved ones. But the show must go on. Life don't care if you have problems. All he cares about is Reproduction or Creation.

 

dont kill yourself man. what you are going through aounds horrivle but there is a way out of it. i know nofap is hard but it will fix your pied and you can find someone you can love. believe in it. just dont give up! we are here for you.

 

There is a God, Yeshua Jesus Christ. We all have a harsh story to tell, please don't consider suicide because there is hope

 

What do you enjoy doing? Do those activities bring you peace?

 

yes and i have fallen back to its trap and recovered and fallen back etc. i am in a better place sometimes and sometimes in bad but i know nofap works. you should try finding hobbies or activities you could enjoy. and i know how it feel to have one of those dreams you explained. i have seen many like that where i was with i girl i loved. it feels horroble to wake up to reality. and those dreams sometimes come back. but it just means we are not fully over them and it is okay. but we should try to work on getting over them by meeting new people that we can actually be with and who can be even better than the other girl, since we can actually be with them. we fantasize about a girl but we do not know how it would actually be like if we were to get them. so it always seems perfect. but in reality we can not date them and it is not real. i wish all the best for you man. i really hope that you find way out of the bad situation you are in amd come out on top feeling better than ever. and i know you can do it. the feelings you have are not going to last forever, they will fade away. just keep pushing forward! one day you will feel better.

 

It sounds like from everything you said that you long to be desired. It seems like you spend so much time caring for others (including your father) it makes me wonder who takes care of you. Do you have time to take care of yoursef? From my perspective it sounds like life is difficult for you, now, but is there anything in the future that you are currently looking forward to? Do you have any friends you could talk with? Or maybe something as simple as seeing a movie?

Addictions do things to our brains regardless if it is a drug or porn. Dopamine is what makes us feel joy. Basically, an addiction makes all the dopamine for your brain go towards that feeling of pleasure when you act on the desire. As such there is no Domaine left for the rest of your brain. It makes it difficult for us to feel the small joys of life. I am not trying to diminish what you are feeling, but rather to say that things get better. Those feelings you are experiencing get better. It will take some effort, but they eventually go away.

Lastly, you are not alone. So many people feel that this battle can be hopeless at times.

 

i doubt it has to do with drugs. but you should not do those. i used to do a lot of stuff in my past but luckily now im sober from them. i got the vibe that you do not either which is good! now you should try to get away from pmo and thoughts about escorts. remember that she only listened and talked and was with you because you paid her. if you did not pay her she might not agree with you at all. she might be completely different in different circumstances. but i do feel your pain, i know what it is like. take it day by day being busy. God bless you!

 

There is a way out you silly Galah. It's her business to get you caught in her vortex. No drug distributor samples the goods, but he's more than willing to offer a free sample. To hell with the dick pills and to hell with her, she doesn't love you. Stay away. It's the easiest option, and it's the correct one. Simple as.


As for the second question, don't even entertain that debate. I'm sure God knows that your problems can be fixed, because you're here, asking for input, from people in similar situations. Many hands will make your burden easier to carry.

 

sucks to hear that you are feeling that way. have you kept on pmoing since we last talked?

 

Hey Bro, Gods hand is never to short to reach down and pull us out of the deepest pit. The emotions your feeling I have been well aquiented with them also. Your not alone and your not a mistake. Sometimes all it takes is one word of encouragement to change the whole trajectory of our lives. God loves you. Read Psalm 103 & 108

 

well hmm, could that relate to your situation that happened just now that you talked about?