I did posted something similar... Now I'm looking for reassurance...

Everything is hideous now... Since i went to therapy talking about constantly doubting my own sexuality and it almost ruined my life... I thought i had HOCD but later she diagnosed me with General anxiety disorder instead... As i went back home and thought about my trans porn... I was wondering if I'm really attracted feminine figure or just dick... Because every time I imagine a hot girl with a dick my penises went rock hard... After years of cutting off pornography and masturbation, the transwoman fetish is still going strong... Thought about a chick with a dick is turning me on... And when i test as imagine a guy i felt distressed and anxiety hitting my stomach I'm not really sure if I'm turning on or just Anxiety... That's why it's hard for me to move on...

Since the doubts came my entire life has been collapsing... Anxiety raising like hell, i get frequent major depressive episodes... At one point i just wanna accept being gay but I don't feel right... Also i never feel on a guy or fantasizing about being cuddled or stuff is a hell no...

I'm trapped inside my own mind... How manly you are to see a beautiful chick with a dick and a guy sucking a transwoman dick and pounding ass turning you on... I seriously think I'm deeply denied about my sexuality... Or just cause of the earlier start of transwoman addiction that literally broke my system... Cause after years of nofap, the transwoman fetish still going strong...