Been on this journey nearly five months and have never had a streak longer than 13 days. Today something happened in the gym that was a real wake up call. Sometimes something really shitty needs to happen in order for you to wake the hell up. I've kept this hidden flash drive for over six years, adding more and more depraved shit to it over the years. It was the last thing of my PMO past that I was emotionally attached to, and couldn't let go of. After today's events, I deleted it and formatted the drive for good measure. I can't believe it's all gone. I spent years collecting all this stuff, felt like a part of me died, but also a new version of me was reborn. This drive represents the old me. The sick, depraved, and depressed deviant that would get so anxious around girls that I couldn't even talk to them... Today starts my new years resolution. By new year 2021 I'll be 30 days clean.