I can't stop watching porn. I always try to not relapse, but something will just make me do it. I am confused about my sexuality. I just don't know what I am because I watch gay porn. I don't know if this is porn escalation.. I feel depressed. Porn, turned me into a failure. Became suicidal, confused me about my sexuality, make me doubt about everything. I just want to find out who I am. It changed my whole sexual taste. I don't know who I am and this is killing me. I just want this to stop.
Start with recognition of circumstances you fap under. Think about situations when you want to do that, what do you feel before, where and when do you mostly masturbate etc... You need to understand the situation to fight effectively. Sport, meditation and other relaxing and healthy activities can help you in your journey And don't be afraid that you don't understand your sexuality- you will after you clean your mind, now your brain is unable to do that.
If you don’t feel romantic or love interest for men that is P escalation. You 100% can quit. But you may need some support along the way. You are you. The porn has just rotted your brain and messed with your identity. It has probably happened to everyone on this board at one time or another. You are not alone.
