Ive been sucked into this particular genre and its fucked my psyche up, its the only thing I can get off too and no matter how many days I go without porn I somehow always end up watching said genre. When I first found it it was very intrusive but I didnt really think about it after I was done 2 years later its all I can fucking watch man. And now it feels like I want to act it out IRL. I cant fucking rationalize man, it just feels normal to me now before I used to hate that I fapped to it .Is it just how I am naturally wired? Did porn change me or brought out what was in me already? Im only 22 man, porn caused me so many problems yet I still watch the same stuff, please anyone/someone help, Im scared and worried
There is a well-known phenomenon called "escalation" which is probably what happened here. It happened to me too so I can relate. Basically the process is, as you watch more and more porn, eventually you get bored by what used to be naturally arousing, so to get the same rush you start seeking out newer, different kinds of content. Usually they get more graphic and deviant as this is what it takes to provoke the dopamine thrill you used to get from more standard porn. I think once this more fetishistic interest develops, then even if you give up porn for awhile, you naturally funnel back into the more extreme stuff if you start watching again. This is what kept happening to me. I'd go nofap for awhile, start feeling ok about things, then go back to PMO and even if I started out with more softcore stuff, I'd very quickly re-escalate back to the fetish sites. Anyway you're doing the right thing by posting your thoughts. Don't be scared, just do your best to stay away from porn entirely. The longer you do that, the more your natural desires will return. If you were disgusted by what you fapped to before, then it shows it is in conflict with your core identity, and you really should stop before you do something you really regret like acting out in real life. There are stories here of guys who did that and they have a hard time getting over doing something that's so against who they really are.
No. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ybo...-the-more-you-scratch-the-more-you-itch-2010/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ybo...d-the-brain/are-sexual-tastes-immutable-2012/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/mis...tolerance-and-morphing-sexual-tastes-show-16/ Think of the example of a fetish. How could someone possibly be 'wired' for a anime fetish (which by the way is on the rise) which didn't exist 30 years ago?
Yes and sometimes the fact that its taboo breaking or disgusting is part of the 'turn on' especially for those suffering from low self esteem, for example. There are many theories about this one is possibly sexualizing something you are scared of so you are 'controlling' it or possibly gaining 'pleasure' from it. The book "The Brain That Changes Itself" went into BSDM origins for example - in almost all cases the people 'into' being abused in some way suffered some sort of medical childhood trauma that at the same time involved parents or adult love. So for example parents taking you to a nurse for a painful treatment, and you were so scared it resulting in urinating in ones pants might manifest as a sexual fetish years later. Understanding the roots and what it's trying to satiate is a good start to healing.
