I can't imagine ruining my own life again... I rather be dead

BROTHER RELAPSE MEANS DOING PMO LIKE YOU USED TO.
LAPSE MEANS THAT YOU DID LESS PMO COMPARED TO YOU USED TO.
DON'T GIVE A FU*K ABOUT THIS FORGET ABOUT ALL THESE AND LIVE YOU LIFE HAPPILY.

 

I think you are obsessing over terminology

 

Whether it was a relapse or a reset, it doesn't matter. You lost energy, however, you have a lot more spare energy due to the long streak of NoFap.

But since you did do PMO, you now are clouded by dark, negative energy. It is like being in a haze, like being in a maze that you cannot see out of. You must get yourself out of this dark energy mindset.

One option: either today or tomorrow, skip a meal. Be hungry for a few hours and drink only water, and during this time, pray to the Lord to take away the negative energy.

Option two: go exercise, and do some really healthy stuff. Also, get a good nights sleep.

This negative energy will pass, it is a hellish internal environment. So no wonder you are feeling bad right now. But you just have to make it through these few days... Good luck, you can do it!

 

I just read your original post. Well, seems your body has underwent a shock. And this image of what you saw has strongly stuck inside of you. A deep, instinctual part of you was provoked is what I am thinking. Over time, it should subside..

This can be a great lesson learned... we must constantly be vigilant.. there is so much electronic content that is almost like porn, and if we view it closely, it will cause this shocking response that sticks with us.

Keep going! you have not failed, try and erase the memory from your mind

 

How long did you watch the video for?

 

I’d say this wasn’t a reset or a relapse. It’s like you were walking in a forest and your attention was distracted by something.

You shouldn’t reset your counter and you also shouldn’t count this is a reset. You ALMOST fell, but managed to hold on. You slipped, but didn’t fall.

so just keep going as you were

 

I also relapsed today and now I am on a point of nowhere where I know that almost nothing is going to work for me if I just started my journey again.
I am telling so many lies to myself that I am confused now what to do.