I am not singel...just in a long distant relationship

I don't know how you feel. As you are from the opposite sex, this is kind of exotic for me to talk about. Remember that you should not be feeling guilty or anything. When being alone over such a long period of time it is absolutely acceptable to give yourself a better feeling. But big_dave really said it well, find people that are like you in real life. Just make sure that you have many situations where you are not alone anymore. I mean, I could tell you how I would behave: I don't think of religion in a good way. Not trying to force my opinion on others but I think there's too much bullshit, dogma and stigmatising. 6 months alone is crazy. I am in a long distant relationship for over 1 year. Seeing my gf every 2 weeks usually. If I were in the situation that I didn't see my gf for more than 2 months, I would cheat or find someone better. And I would not make myself go crazy about the sin. You and I have desires. It is not our mission to behave like perfect creatures but we also have the mission not to act like a wild beast. You can see that you have desires. You like to eat some food, maybe some unhealthy stuff aswell. Maybe you like to watch tv regularly. Maybe you have some tv series or series on Netflix that you adore. Maybe you play video games. If any of that applies to you then you are a consumer like every other person. And that is absolutely ok, as long as we know that too much of something is bad for us. In the end I can only say that I respect very much what you do. I would not be able to do that. But do yourself the favour and ask yourself why you do what you do. Don't do all that so you get the feeling of being the good girl and it just feels great to play by the rules and god will love me because I do everything right and stuff. You have to believe that the loyalty is very important for you because he is the love of your life. He makes you smile, when you hug him it cleans your soul and when he is with you then the word "fear" has absolutely no power over you. An important step in my relationship with my gf was that I cared about detachment. First 6 months with her it was difficult for me. Because when she wasn't with me I wanted to have her by my side or I was worrying if she was checking out other guys and stuff. I overcame that barrier by saying to myself that you don't possess her. By letting go of the idea of possession you come closer to detachment which leads to one of the most beautiful things that a human being can ever have, which is appreciation.