I almost go past the border...I will post back in some months with great insight

I admit before myself and before anyone who may see this post, that I relapsed; P, edging, even intentional wet dream (lucid dream)...and I almost got myself into a (P-related) addiction from where no one comes back...
I will take a time off this forum as it can be triggering at times, and try to enforce strict measure upon myself; wake up very early, cold showers, workout intense again etc.
I promise I will try to keep a journal; with possible pitfalls, averted risks, insights gained.
Please consider my journey in your thoughts and\or prayers even if for a second today.
Im strictly determined on this and I havent considered the possibility of failure.
godpseed!