I’m Rebooting and I’m abstaining porn for the rest of my life :Nofap journal

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Cloudyboy009, Oct 29, 2018.

  1. Cloudyboy009

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    Hey guys today I wanna join the so called NoFap journey and earn the benefits of it.

    The reason i wanna join NoFap is personal. Since I was 11 in sixth grade, home alone while my parents where in Mexicali I was looking at girls, not porn though or yet. But then eventually i saw something that changed my life... PORN. I still had a young little boy mind, and when I saw this i was so fascinated. Then i started touching my penis which gave off a unique feeling and I eventually started humping my bed and I had my first orgasm.
    After that I strarted to do it every two days or three until seventh grade when I would wake up every morning and Hump my bed and orgasm. Those memories still give me nightmares of how disgusting I was. Then this year I changed..
    I started to learn about NoFap and I eventually started to cut down on my masturbation. But the urges keep on coming and I would relapse at least after seven days. Today I did it again but today I also joined NoFap the one chance I think I might have of taking possibly my childhood back and my life :)
     
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  3. Meditation Monk

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    You can do it bro.!!!!
     
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  4. Cloudyboy009

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    This is now day 2
     
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  5. countitjoy5

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    Be prepared to encounter an emotional current that will seem to try to push you back into the addiction. That is the hardest thing to deal with.
     
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  6. Cloudyboy009

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    This is now day 3 :)
     
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  7. Cloudyboy009

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    This is now day 4
     
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  8. Mattew

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    That's great, keep up...
     
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  9. Cloudyboy009

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  10. Clean Plate

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    Be careful with statements like that in your title. Go for more realistic goals like "Today, right now, I will not watch porn." You dont want to sabotage your success by saying "I will never watch porn for the rest of my life." Baby steps lead to a long sobriety.
     
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  11. countitjoy5

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    Nothing wrong with saying that - intention is big part of breaking free. He doesn't intend to watch porn anymore, this is very realistic and doable.
     
  12. Clean Plate

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    Yes but saying you will never watch porn again is too unrealistic. This addiction is cunning baffling and powerful. The next thing you know you relapse and you feel bad for breaking the goal. Break the goal (sobriety) into small attainable chunks. Im not saying he shouldnt think like that but its like saying "Im going to hit the million dollar jack pot today!" Next thing you know you dont and boom the addiction starts all over again. Ive been where he has and I learned to take it day by day.
     
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  13. Cloudyboy009

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    Yes this is now day 6 :) yay
     
  14. Cloudyboy009

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    I mean it man I’m not gonna watch porn, I’ve been relapsing and planning what to do each time
     
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  15. Warrior1995

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    I am too 23 yo. And today is day 67 of nofap and day 184 of no porn. It has great worth cloudy boy. But the path is very difficult. In ur way there will be a time when u will like there is nothing beneficial in No PMO becoz of flatline and withdrawal symptoms, at that time most of the people relapse. Even i relapsed many times just due to that thought. U have to be very conscious.
    If i need any help just PM me here in conversation section i will be there to help u.
     
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  16. countitjoy5

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    Great, bury it. You've made a decision that you don't want it or need it in your life - make it final. Take the door and slam it in PMO's face forever.
     
  17. Cloudyboy009

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    This has been where my streaks cut off and I relapse but I’m controlling the urges... there not as strong as before which could be a good or bad thing as maybe there gonna eventually come ):
     
  19. Cloudyboy009

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    This is day 8 and I feel like maybe a little boost of confidence :)
     
  20. Cloudyboy009

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    This is day 9 and I feel like I can better control my urges :)
     

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