How to rewire my brain? My story... Help...

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  1. EndToPorn

    EndToPorn Fapstronaut

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    Hello everyone, I'm new here, and first of all i wanted to tell you all my story (it won't take long i promise). And also, sorry for my english, im not a native english speaker.
    So... When i was 13 i started masturbating like everyday after school... And well, since i had high speed internet, you guys already know, i was always watching porn... I never had problems with girls, especially after the 14's, although, ive never had real sex, it was just kissing and touching... I figured it out that i had some kind of ED when i got a real girlfriend (when i was 16)... We tried to some more than kissing, but he wasn't tottaly hard and i couldn't have an orgasm... Some years has passed and now I'm 20... I've learned about the reboot last year, somewhere around november/december, and well, i got so depressed and worried about my future, and thought that i would never be able to have sex, and that actually helped me on my first reboot, and i achieved a complete 90 days without masturbating (although there was some days that i spend some time fantasising about sex and everything). I felt that i could FINALLY have sex... BUT, since i had no girlfriend when i finished my reboot, around the end of february of this year, i "accidentally", masturbated, although, i hadn't used my hand (i was just doing some "sex movements" in my bed, while touching the bed with my p... And eventually i had a orgasm). After that happened, i continued to do this everyday, and ive spent like a month doing it, without watching porn and using the hand. after a month, I've started to see some girls pictures, and fantasising more in my head. Then we reach today, around 3 months since i did the reboot, I've started a new one a few days ago, I'm not even looking at girls pictures (i even blocked my instagram).

    Since i didn't tried to rewire in the last reboot, and i didn't even know that this was a thing until now, i really wanted you guys to help me in this part, and give me some hint about how long i should do a complete abstinence of masturbation and orgasm, and how can i rewire my brain towards the real thing.

    Fun fact: when i was 14/15, i did a reboot, didnt watched porn and also didnt masturbated for like 2 months, WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING that reboot was a thing lol, i just got tired of masturbation.

    Also: there was some time, that my sexual tastes became very "extreme", and also i was masturbating quite a lot, but last year i was just watching regular porn and masturbating for like 1 time a day.

    Thanks for reading, sorry for my english, and i will really appreciate any help and motivation!
     
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  2. One Eyed Owl

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