Sometimes the thought of fantasies such as illegal relationship triggering me. I don't know why I like such fantasies that is morally wrong (Probably I learned it from P# itself.) Almost all the plot in P# are somehow illegal and morally wrong. How to change my mindset that such fantasies no more triggering me ?
Hi. Most of these fantasies stem from 1) porn escalation, 2) unresolved trauma. I cannot say how to stop them from triggering you, that is a person-to-person conversation to be had and a lot of times it needs to involve a therapist. But I can say that understanding why these fantasies show up, when they started to appear and how they affect you is a very good start to work through them. Porn escalation is a normal phenomenon for porn addicts that wires your brain to need more and more of that dopamine hit. Which means, the more taboo, extreme, illegal, violent, etc., the better. You have to remember this is not your true self talking, so do not blame yourself for it. Unresolved trauma that can lead to this kind of fantasy is difficult to exactly understand, because trauma responses of different people will be, as well, different. What I can think of is problems in between your parents and/or with authorities, a relationship that ended up in cheating, fears for commitment, so on and so forth. Healing is a very vulnerable and personal journey, be patient with yourself and try to understand what your body and mind are telling you. Try to avoid self-triggering. Best of luck.
