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How to get back my manhood?!

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by kriss93, Jun 1, 2017.

  1. kriss93

    kriss93 Fapstronaut

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    Hey.

    I am lost myself through the years of pornography...and also, i am lost my manhood...

    I used to "just know" how to be a man, how to behave and etc, but now I don't really know....I am often think that I "am not man enough", comparing myself (my body and my soul) with other men, and etc. I often feel "less" than them...

    How could I get back my old self? :/

    I have tried to not watch porn for about 20-22 days and I was a lot calmer, but this "identity" or "feeling less" problem was still there...

    It wasn't a problem in my childhood to hold eye contact with other men...but now I am kinda cannot do it... when a man come in the street I can look at his eyes but if he looks at mine too, it's always me who lost the eye contact first...I don'T know why, maybe I am afraid that if I don't do it, he will beat me or start fight with me.... this is annoying I just want to get back the old feeling to feel "equal" to other men...

    Any suggestions could be helpful!

    I'd like if we could argue this topic guys, I am curious about any opinion.
     
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  2. jest

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    I'm sure somebody is going to come in here and give you the speech about how "being a man" is a social construct and all that jazz and in a way I guess that's true. Anyway you're not happy therefore what makes you feel that way? Is it that you're not fit? Bad looking? Lacking charm or charisma?

    Think about ways to make you feel better and work for them, such as working out, studying stuff, getting rid of PMO and so on and so forth. Don't compare yourself to anybody, we are all unique. You need to learn to love yourself so ask yourself what would make you feel better about yourself.
     
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  3. kriss93

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    Hmm great and you're right man! I am not satisfied with my own body, that's true! Somehow I embedded that "victim" feeling that I am born to be overweight and etc.... and may the other problems come from this:

    I mean I am embedded the thought and feeling that I will never have a girlfriend because I am not man enough to her... and therefore I have some kinda "autogyneplhilic" feelings (Autogynephilia = Sexual arousal when you imagine yourself as a woman/have sex as a woman), so if I am considering what you saying bro.....

    My autogynephilic feelings may come from the deepest need to touch a woman's body once and for all (and have sex with her), and although I am overweighted and embedded this feeling that I will never have a girlfriend could ccause these feelings...

    The thing which annoying me the most:

    I used to love round, big asses, and loved to fuck them, and I remember just about thinking to fuck them made me horny, and I remember when I saw one on a pic, I got an erection within 5 secs.... but now this is gone.....therefeore...instead of this my mouth often generate splash when I see a dick in a picture...I hate this... And I am noticed that blowjobs are exciting me now (especially when I am imagine myself at the woman's position), but I used to just skipped them..

    So all in all I became a full "bottom".... but I hate this.... I remember how I loved to be the top...

    I need to add that I am watching transwoman porn for about 2 years...and I am not consider myself gay, but I may try out with a transwoman (but only if could be the TOP!). But I remember that I used to love pounding a pussy but now when I am think about that It does nothing to me....:/

    What to do?
     
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  4. jest

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    First step is to let go of PMO, whether your fantasies/fetishes are something you're OK with or not that's up to you, however, know that PMO increases your desires for something new and different over time, hence why you used to like X thing and now you're more into Y thing, it will escalate if you keep watching P.

    After that I'd advise you to work out so you can hopefully feel better about who you are in general, work on your self-confidence and learn to live life to the fullest on your own and only then should you be worried about finding a woman.
     
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  5. Break the PMO cycle that is the first step. The second thing you need to do is boost your testosterone so join a gym or workout at home whichever works for you and clean up your diet. The third step is to work on your social skills you could try a dating coach like this guy https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCm9vxWZXU_JA0coIBeSAk6A

    Put everything together and then go out into the real world and meet real people. Your energy will change, confidence will increase and people will want to connect with YOU. Online dating is also another easy way to meet girl’s hell you don’t even need to meet the most attractive ones just use the whole experience as practice.

    Think breath relax. Repetition is the key to becoming the person you want to be.
     
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  6. kriss93

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    Thanks this is a very good suggestion and I am seeing it could be helpful for me.

    I think my problem is mainly kinda "identity" problem.... I need to go to gym and be among guys as much as I can, and I may could identify with them again (just like the old times)
     
  7. I think your identity 'as a man' is born out of the things you represent as a human being and the things you believe in and/or the things you are willing to fight for, whether that be family, love or your friends, and I don't mean fight as in violence but as in the things you do on a daily basis whether they are constructive or destructive. Strenght isn't just about physical strength, it can be about inner strength too and it is still possible to be vulnerable yet show courage at the same time, one reason why i believe a lot of men don't talk about their problems. My opinion take it or leave it, is a man is someone who cherishes and respects women, protects children and stands up for himself, his family and what he believes in./
     
  8. it is good to take your time in this. you will get your old self back. trust me on this. it just takes plenty of time.
     
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  9. Syrietic

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    You definitely have PMO induced fetishes, this all seems to be a side effect of your addiction and I can understand to some degree the confusion you are going through. You can still go back to normal - but first you need to detach yourself from the "feminine-self" you are associating with yourself with and quit porn completely.

    Best of luck!
     
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    Good idea but how could i detach myself from the "feminine-self"?
     
  11. Sandy999

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    Same situation I am going through,
    I was watching porn from last 4 years but I was happy that I was talking for girls,i got a GF,i loved her very much but I got anxious b.coz I was not getting morning woods and it results into the too much anxiety and hypertension and I feel like nothing,i breakup with her because I don't want to ruin her life.after this I got indulge in watching pornography,n normally I don't get erection but when I watch it I got one instantly(I used to watch too much incest porn tumblr pages) but now after 6 months I lost everything,i lost my manly feelings,i don't feel like man,same situation like u in which I scared to make eye contact with others specially mens.
    I feel like when I go among other boys they will treat me as a gay rather than like them..I feel like I should suicide but I don't want to give my family a sore of life..
    Thanks friends i will try it..
     

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