Apologies this may be triggering to some. Last night I was feeling frisky in bed and teased my husband until he was erect. There was no movement from him, nothing to indicate him partaking in lovemaking. I stopped and he spoke about something unrelated to what I had just done. He then cuddles me and starts to nod off. I can’t keep things quiet so I ask him if he wanted to have sex (something I hate asking bc it just kills the mood and I don’t want pity sex) and he thought I didn’t want to have to sex?! He goes to sleep and I stayed up just staring at the ceiling. I’m at a loss. I just gave him a handjob (no O) and he thought I didn’t want sex. He knows I’m a very sexual person. We had a baby 7 months ago so the evenings when our baby is asleep is our magic hour. My self esteem is already rock bottom and I feel crushed by this. Am I being unreasonable? I don’t know what to do or say? I’m kicking myself for initiating. He’s been PM free for 145 days but lately he’s been feeling a bit depressed. He says he hasn’t relapsed and there hasn’t been any indication he’s watched P or Psubs on our accountability software. So I’m not sure how to handle this. Cheers in advance.