Hey. I remember that I loved to write "love letters" to a few girl classmates in elementary school, and bring flowers to some of them. Now I'm 5th year in university and just think back how porn and mo ruined my life. How can I bring back these times, because these things are just "weird" for me, and don't feel desire to do them...:/
I think that for the time being, you have to accept that these are the consequences of a damaged brain. You are in the early stages of healing - 5 weeks is a good start btw. It might take six months or even longer for your brain to recalibrate itself after the bombardment of porn and the distortion of how you view girls and women.
I hope you're right my friend... cause in these times it's hard to believe that this perspective to how I saw women before never come back. But I'm hoping...and keep going, because this is the only chance, it's worth a try!
Well that's right! That is why we refer to 'a reboot to factory settings'. After the gradual healing and rewiring of your brain, the brain will return to it's 'old self'. Stay hopeful!
By the way, as I see your counter, I have to congratulate that. Well done. Have you noticed some improvements during your journey? And what are they?
Just keep on the reboot, the longer to stay away from porn the less your objectification of women will become. But as an addict you will always, just like me, I will always be a porn addict and I must stay vigilant. By the way writing love letters and roses is better once you're in a relationship.