I have been addicted to pornography and masturbation since 12, and it has become a major part of my life. If I wasn't busy doing something difficult, then I would be thinking of porn I've watched already. I can remember that since the age of 6 or something retarded like that, I was obsessed with women. I have been masturbating for about 6 years now, and I can say that if I'm left in the house alone, I would jerk off about 15-20 times before I get an excruciatingly painful headache that would end my 'sessions'. I've noticed that all I can think of is porn and sex and stuff, and I'm really, really worried now since I have went on many sites to find free anonymous sex. I have made appointments with several people and about 15 minutes before meeting, I cancel the whole thing. I realized that I'm really desperate because after that, I deleted my accounts, only to remake accounts and start the same thing, WITH THE SAME PEOPLE. I really need help but I can't stop thinking about sex. As well, the worst part is I keep having dreams of having sex with my mom and aunts, and the problem is my favorite porn was mom & son cartoon porn. Well that's my sad life story, time to talk about progress so far. I quit a few times, with the streaks being, in days, 3, 3, 3, 9 and 2. Every time I see anything that was even remotely similar to the porn I used to watch, I would start thinking of sex, hence the relapses. I just want to know, how long will it take for someone like me to recover, assuming all the rules of NoFap are abided. Thanks.
For a moment there, I thought you were talking about me. Except the part where you said it's been 6 years... I spent 16! Everything else is the same. It should be impossible at this point for me right? Yet, here I am on my first streak ever. only a month and a half in, and my fantasies have decreased from every minute of every hour, to a couple of minutes a day when i'm at my most vulnerable before and after sleep. I've made female friends without thinking of how they are in bed for the first time. I'm studying better, lifting double what I could during workouts, and I don't hate myself anymore, even though I go through a ton of shit trying to fight. Every fight is a slap to your brain to rewire itself correctly, and with every rewiring, you get the energy to fight your brain even harder. These changes begin to show up after 2 weeks, don't wait! You're younger, you can rewire faster!
Thank you so much for the reply. I was worried I was a special untreatable case until I read your comment. That's a great motivation boost, so thank you again!
Expect up to two years if you classify yourself as severe. It’s also very up and down with the symptoms coming in varying intensities. I wish you the best of luck.
I also just started today, I am 23. After 8 years of toxic consumption today is where enough is enough. I am ready to reclaim my soul. I promise myself to get up even faster whenever I am knocked down during this journey. Perseverance is key. I will leave you all with a quote "Courage is grace under pressure. We can do this guys!
