Hoping to recover my self-respect

Hi there.

I'm new here and I was considering skipping over this step, but since I want to be serious I might as well give it a shot.

I'm a 22 year-old college student. I first started masturbating when I was 12, and from day 1 it was almost exclusively to porn, and from day 1 I've probably only gone 2 weeks at most without consuming porn of some kind.

I like to think of myself as a kind, polite (if quite shy) person with strong moral values (athiest, but a Vonnegut-style humanist), but over the years my porn-watching habits have progressed into darker and darker territory. What's more, I'm fully aware of that most pornography is supporting the greater patriarchal system of abuse and misogyny that is the sex industry.

Fuck, I will come out and say it, I've been watching rape-fantasy stuff, often with an incest theme. I'm a goddamn feminist and I can't break away from watching representations of fathers sexually abusing their daughters.

The past few months have driven me into a spiral of self-loathing and anxiety, made worse by the fact that my incessant porn-watching and -downloading has severely affected my performance at college and social interaction. And so, I'm making a serious commitment here to break free of my addiction and regain some goddamn self-respect.

Hope you can help me,
Sparky