Homosexual curiosity and thoughts

Double Vaginal Penetration

 

Theres nothing wrong with it cuz u are fucking a girl

 

Yes, but morally are threesomes ok?

 

Its fully up to u, if u are ready to fuck ur wife with another dude, then go for it, but I personally wouldn't do it!

 

This was my dilemma...of course now I wouldn't do it, but a while back we were both incredibly turned on by it.

 

I guess its got more to do with the fact that both of u got really excited which i assume isn't a regular thing for u

 

No, we already have lots of great sex! I think it was a fluke, where one week we watched a lot of p0rn together. Gave us naughty ideas...p0rn warps the mind, even for loving couples.

 

We all grow up and want to see and understand a lots of things. When I was 18, me and the boys used to watch shitload tons of video material on people dying, heads being cut off and shit. And no, I'm not a sick fuck, I'm regular dude. It wasn't even fetish, it's just that I was curious, I wanted to understand wtf is it. And just imagine if somebody sends you a video of a guy jumping from the top of the phone tower or something. Then cameraman rushes to see the body. It's fucking disgusting, but curiosity is a bitch.
Now I'm 19 and I'll say that I have no interest or curiosity for it. It's just that I was younger I saw one video and dudes kept sending a lots of crap, and my curiosity played it's role. Even my teacher (used to be teacher, now school is over), told me how he and dudes watched on 2006 early youtube some uncensored videos of soliders dying, screaming in pain, being blown up n shit like that.
So... I guess it's just you being curious. Even if you have to become gay you will accept it.

Peace ;3

 

Y do u state such things without knowing what sexuality is and hocd is? Please dont confuse him if u dont know a thing about hocd and sexuality

 

Hello,

I hope you are feeling better after receiving so many comments on your post.

I would like to share my "testimony" with you.
I believe it will help you to understand yourself.

Like you, I started masturbating myself very early (12) and do it often - twice per day or every day.

In the beginning, I was entirely attracted by the sensation that you have when aroused. No filthy thoughts at all (how innocent I was!)

I have always been attracted by other girls in my teenage life. I didn't have any sex experience in the past, just some kiss on the cheek and on the mouth (not french style though - lol).
I am Christian too - filled with the Holy Spirit speaking in tounges and water baptized in Jesus' Name.
My family is involved 'til these days in ministry.

With the years, I started discovering myself more and more since arriving in masturbating myself regularly twice per day (porno wasn't there yet - sometimes I was watching some semi-naked girls in some ads and imagine them while masturbating).

Because of this strong sensation in masturbating myself, I started looking for more and introduced myself to pornography (also because my friends at school were showing videos).

I admit that I have always been not very masculine.
Because of my Christian lifestyle, my character formed in a very nice and calm environment and when at school, the difference between me and my friends was enormous!
They were interested in playing football, being strong and muscular, be the "guapos" of the situation.
I was just a teenage guy who liked reading and go to church XD

At High School especially, they started to make jokes about me.
That I was gay, homosexual etc.
I knew it wasn't true, but it really hurt me. I started departing from having friends, feeling uncomfortable in the presence of other "males" because I thought they were thinking I was gay.

This didn't help with the porno and masturbating situation and, to try to me that I wasn't gay, I started "managing myself" even more.

Super Long story short - I started thinking "what if I am gay indeed".. I started giving thoughts to that:
started thinking what about having sex with other guys would be and.. started masturbating while thinking of it.
I liked the idea... I liked it. I continued doing it.
Feeling bad - ashamed - I knew I was wrong. But more than everything, once the release of masturbation was gone, rethinking on that homosexual thoughts, it was disgusting me!

I knew what I really wanted, I always desired to love a woman and have a family with her and work for the Lord!

Now, let me go straight to the point:
Nowadays, looking at my past, the Lord helped me to understand how it works in the spiritual realm and in our brain.
What happens is this: a man who masturbates itself, regularly, especially a lot, does find pleasure in his own body.

In reality, he does make sex to himself! tell me if not?
Did you notice that after masturbating a lot, the only idea of touching yourself and masturbation arouse you?

When you masturbate a lot, in your brain what happens is this:
Hey, I find pleasure in my own body, which is a man's body, playing with this "toy" (a penis).
I know what men like, I know what men feel, I know what they think.
Pleasure is penis!

This thought takes place easily, especially if you don't think about any girl and just concentrate on your own pleasure or, even worse, in other men's pleasure.

Now, if it comes to watch gay porno, especially after that you're already masturbating like crazy, it will be easy for you to be caught in the same pleasure - not mainly because you're gay; in reality your brain it's just connecting the pleasure you are feeling in the body as penis=fun (that's how it has been registered after you've played a lot with your own buddy).

It is a matter of perversion - nothing else!
Perversion in a mind that has been manipulated by having feelings of pleasure in your own body (a male one), wrong sex thoughts or, even worse, to bullyism, sex abuses, divorce (no good parenting), lack of attention etc.

I must admit that I still struggle sometimes with these thoughts.
But every time I stop, even if aroused, and really think to have sex with a real man (not in my imaginary), wooo: IT IS DISGUSTING!

From this, I recognize that it is a brain status; we have trained it too long to find pleasure in our own body (which is a male one) and, consequently, in any other body similar to ours.

This may not be the case for everyone, but it could be similar to your situation.

I met a lot of people who made it out of homosexual life.
They are now living a perfect Christian life (many married), talking to everyone about the truth which is in Jesus Christ!
Homosexuality is another lie, close related to Pornography and masturbation/perversion.

I'm glad you read so far - I couldn't express myself entirely, but if you have thoughts, queries, questions, please do not hesitate to ask (even in private messages).

You are not gay!
You've been created to love another woman, and show your love to her (not to yourself, not to any other temporary girl or even animal/thing).

May God bless you, young boy!

You have a blessed future in front of you - God really takes care of you!
In Jesus Name

 

Nice!
Don't give up - and if you need help, we're here to help.

P.S: sorry for the millions of grammar mistakes I made. I'm adjusting them now!
English is not my first language.

God bless you