Help Me !

Hello Guys, I am fapping since more then 20 years , everyday , sometimes twice or thrice a day ! I am loosing my life force to do anything good and great now and wanna die instead of living such pathetic life.
In my life first time I was able to stop fapping for 24 days continues starting last month and ending this month by turning towards spirituality , but again started it since 25th day, trigger was a body message by a young lady (I was feeling continues pain in my muscles for few days). Since then its 4 days today and I fapped 6 times already.
I want some motivation please , tell me that I can stop myself.
My Problem is I cannot sleep in night until I do not masturbate, If i sleep then I am fine, The only time I fap is Night time when I am in bed. Please give some motivation and some suggestion on what shell I do. I am sure many of you guys would have been in the same situation and able to control yourself by some way ! guide me please , I want to come out of this darkness.

 

Thanks @Orphan for your kind words and guidance on the ebook download.

 

Hello Everybody ! I am gonna write for first 2 weeks my daily progress here ! Last night was my day 1 after relapse ! Whole day was good. I Started 8k Steps walk and 15 mins of hyper active body workout routine at home.
Problem started again at night when I went to bed. What I felt is even I was half asleep, my mind was playing tricks and in that state too I was about to relapse, this kinda happened 3-4 times and I didn't had a cycle of more then 2-3 hours continues sleep. It was difficult to stop, but somehow I didn't relapsed. So Yay !! Not Relapsed, but edged. I hope I will not edge tonight, wait for my post tomorrow ! be healthy , be strong , God bless you all folks! Thanks !

 

Day 2 Update : Hello Friends, Yesterday was a bad day. relapsed with porn again and no exercise too.

 

Day 3 Update : Passed without relapse. 6500 steps and 18 mins high intensity exercise at home. Good day it was !