I'm looking for help before this habit gets any worse. I didn't know where else to go for information....I don't know what's wrong with me?
Hello "I don't know what's wrong with me?" How about you tell us what you think your problem is LesPauline?
My addiction to porn. I scrollthrough for hours before I can find a release. The things Iused to watch have spiraled into weirder and weirder,violent, fetish, zoo, anime, midgets, I've seen it all. I don't like how I feel after I watch it. I don't want this compulsion, this addiction to control meanymore
First, you are not alone. The desire to not let it control your life is a good one. We all get to that place different ways. We all have had the addiction go to places where we never thought we would find ourselves. It's good you are able to confront it and are ready to work on it. You are in the right place to get some help from people who have been in your shoes. Heck most of us are in your shoes and are still working on things. But that's okay too. Don't beat yourself up about where the addiction has taken you. At the end of this you'll look back and realize how far you have come.
Unfortunelty, that's what happens with this addiction. It also happened with me. Don't worry, there is actually nothing wrong with you. Well there is, you're addicted to porn, but what's happened to you happens to everyone that watches enough porn. You're not a freak. I ended up watching things I didn't even like just to get off. It's good that you've realised there is a problem, now you can get to work on fixing it.
