Hi to you all. Well today is my first day on NoFap. It is also the first day of my latest reboot, which is what I think you all call it after a relapse. My addiction goes way back. I first watched porn when I was 11 and remember being so confused and disgusted with it that I swore to never view it ever again. But once I hit 13 I began consuming porn regularly. I feel really embarrassed about talking about all of this but I guess this is the process, so be it. Anyway I was masturbating almost 7 times a day. It was pathetic. I refer to it in past tense, but the fact is that this isn't my first "reboot". Far from unfortunately. So in all honesty I am doubtful whether I will ever be able to stop this addiction. But I'm on this site to learn how to cope with my temptations and maybe help other people vent their struggles if that helps. But maybe you all could send me some words of advice? If it helps here's a bit more personal info about me that you may (or may not) consider relevant: 1. I'm homeschooled. Some people think homeschoolers are kind of antisocial and sheltered, but this isn't always the case obviously. I went to a small private school for about 10 or 11 years so I haven't been homeschooled my entire life. Now that I am, I am almost always alone and have no siblings or parents that could distract me from my temptations 2. I am a male. Feel free to call me Sammy if you guys please. 3. I am Catholic. Personally I've been trying to incorporate a lot of prayer and reception of sacraments into my everyday life so that I may drop my addiction. I go to confession every week to receive penance for having masturbated to porn. Although I am Catholic, I am always open to more "secular" approaches to treatment and would love to hear some suggestions. Well that about covers it. I've already read some of the posts and the forums and I must say I am very happy to see so many brave people on this site. Porn is as prevalent today as air it seems and it certainly is valued more; and that's why I am so happy to finally see a bunch a of people willing to admit our problem. I've always been too afraid to admit it to anyone outside of a close friend and my priests but maybe community is what I need. I hope to get to know all of you and grow as a person because of it.
