Hello people

Great job man on putting yourself out there! Glad you're starting this journey and I am sure you will learn a lot about yourself along the way. Might help to figure out why you want to escape reality to porn so bad, because I suffer the same issue with the escaping thing too. I have been advised to understand why I escape, because once you rationalize it, might help with allowing yourself to digest and feel those emotions. It's okay to feel bad, that's what makes the good times good, cuz they aren't bad right.
Anyways that's just my coin in the hat. I wish you well on this journey!

 

No worries bro! We're all in the same boat and so it's nice to share our thoughts that we wouldn't otherwise. The trigger thing is real I feel you. As soon as something bad happens it's like autopilot for my brain. We've conditioned our brains to go to fight or flight the instant we feel negative emotions. We've lost touch with how to feel bad and don't know how to process or get through them naturally. Our bodies is just doing its job trying to protect us of course. We just got to learn to accept feeling bad, to cry, and tell ourselves at the same time it is natural and that we still love ourselves after, so we don't enter into a cycle of self-hate. Yeah honestly my best streaks have been when I felt good about myself, doing something I cared about, and surrounded with people. We are social creatures so we need others so we can feel normal about ourselves, so staying out the house as much as we can is good. Anyways take care and good luck!