Hello, here is my story

Hey there,

I hope my English is good enough to tell you my personal story.

I am 26 years old and I have been masturbating almost everyday since I was 11 or 12. On some days - especially lazy sundays or days I am just feeling down - I used to do it three or more times. Usually I am watching along the way. Not because I like porn. I just like to cum. When I was a teenager porns were interessting - something new and somehow forbidden, but when i grew older I had seen almost every kind of (legal) shit in the internet. So porns became just a means to the purpose of an ejaculation.
But there is another thing. As I mentioned at the start I am 26 years old. And I had only two times sex with another person. One time with a girl. And one time with a guy. Of course I never had a real relationship. There were some girls i met a few times. Some hand-holding and kissing, but there had been no more kinds of intimacy. I met the girl I had sex with in a club. I was 19 and she had just turned 18. We were drunken and kissed. A week later we met for a movie. After that we had sex in her car. I never got in touch with her again. I found the guy I had sex with on a lonely holiday night in the internet. We had a little chat and about an hour later we met in parking lot and I fucked him. Of course this was our only contact. At this time I was 21.
As you possibly can imagine this experiences were not the very good to me. Somehow I convinced my self that I was not made for sex with other persons. So I got more or less clear with it and made fapping my only sexual activity. Though i recognized that it had a rather negative influence on my life, I carried on with it. I wasn't happy, but somehow comntended in my life. The went on for years until I beagn to think about my life a few month ago.
Around me I see my friends getting married and having children. They get good jobs and live an exiting life. When I look at me I see a guy who has never had a real girlfriend, lives still at his parent's and who is still struggling to finish his studies. That put a strain on me. But I couldn't really find a reason for my situation.
Last week it happened that i red an article about porn addiction in a newspaper. Suddenl the scales fell from my eyes. After a few research I found nofap. And now I haven't been masturbating for three days. It is not much. And I know that there will be a long way to go if NoFap shall help me to solve my problems. But when I woke up today I saw a first positive result: I had a monring wood. A thing I hven't seen for months or even for years.