Hello from a recovering alcoholic.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by acceptance_serenity, May 30, 2017.

  1. acceptance_serenity

    acceptance_serenity Fapstronaut

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    Hi!

    I'm a 29 year old male.
    I'm about 10 months sober.
    I am thankful for my 12 step program.

    I am getting clean. The next obstacle in cleaning up my life is a Porn-Masturbation addiction.

    I have noticed that abstaining from porn and masturbation yields a better ability to look people in the eye (especially women).
    I doubt I'll ever be able to truly engage in a meaningful relationship with a women if I continue my addiction.

    I have a lot of shame around objectifying half the human race.
    I am able to exist in my own skin a bit better when I am not engaging in porn and masturbation. I know this to be fact for me.

    My porn/masturbation addiction is going to be harder to break than my alcohol addiction. I drank for 7 years. I have used porn and masturbation as a coping mechanism since middle school.

    I have finally come to see my porn and masturbation use a a full stop addiction and coping mechanism. I have found the best part of AA are the meetings. However I feel like porn use and masturbation is even more taboo than alcoholism. I feel more shame around my PM than I did about my alcoholism. I think this might be a harder addiction for me.

    I started to realize a porn addiction when I began collecting rather than randomly using. That was an eye opener.

    Glad to be here!
     
    Last edited: May 30, 2017
  2. Username1021

    Username1021 Fapstronaut

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    Hi @acceptance_serenity, good to see you here! I can relate to the feelings of shame that you mention with PMO. It's mostly a very helpful community around here, and I hope that the forums can help you as much as AA did.
     
  3. Amau

    Amau Fapstronaut

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    Hi my friend, I'm also new here and in the same sitation as yours, also in 12 step programs! It's a real eye-opener, isn't it?

    Glad you made it here!
     
  4. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?