Hello Everyone!

Hi! Im a 16-year old guy and I live in Sweden. Ive been doing PMO since i was 11. Ever since i started I haven't been able to stop doing it. When i was 14-15 i did PMO almost everyday.

There were some occasions where i stopped for 4 days to a maximum of 1 week but then i relapsed and the addictions started over and over. During these occasions where i didn't do PMO i felt like i got some luck here and there. I felt a tiny bit more confident (not that it made a difference if i would talk to a girl or not) and i didn't feel the guilt i always had after each PMO. Then after these nofap days and started with PMO again i felt like the luck turned on me. I felt ALOT less confident and it felt like i got worse on my studies and that girls never talked to me. I actually searched online for "Bad luck after masturbation" and there seems to be people experiencing the same thing.

A few months ago when I was browsing 9gag. I found out that people were doing a "30 day nofap" challenge. And yes i tried it but failed like i did many times before. 2 weeks ago i was curious to just what benefits do I get from 30 day nofap. So I found out that people could achieve more and felt more confident. So since that day i haven't PMO in 2 weeks and counting! This is the longest time I've been off PMO... well MO to be exact since I still can't resist the urge to just look at porn.

Here are some of the things I've noticed in these 2 weeks.

-Its getting easier to resist the urge of PMO. Like I said I live in Sweden and we have some of the most beautiful girls I've seen in my entire life so Its really difficult to get through the day.
-I recently got rejected during these 2 weeks but i still feel confident. Im actually getting more and more confident. Mostly cause of motivation videos and other peoples journeys through nofap.
-I feel like i have more motivation to do stuff.
-I do feel like i have more energy throughout the day.
-I feel like I'm turned on all the time.
-I can PE within seconds of initiating sex. (Still a virgin but I can definitely sense that i will PE.)

My first thought of accomplishing the 30 day nofap is that i would do one PMO after finishing the challenge and just be more in control of how many times i do PMO and not just when It wants to. But then I felt like these 30 days of nofap was just to prove I can stop if i really want to which then just makes this nofap so pointless actually.

So i decided that i during these 30 days:

-Im still allowed to watch porn.
-No PMO.

After these 30 days then I've decided:

-No porn. I have some friends that like to troll so they can sometimes share a link to porn vids or sometimes just send me nude pics of porn stars. So I might get a glimpse of porn but this will absolutely not be intentional.

This will continue on until I get a girlfriend. Because: Right now after 2 weeks of no PMO that means I can easily ejaculate. And if i get a girlfriend I wouldn't want to embarrass myself so I will need to build up my vitality if thats what I would call it.

I hope I will make it and please post comments about things you think I should change or do to help me out. Feedback is always good even if its positive or negative.