"Hell Is What You Make It"

I don't know where to start, first off, obviously I am trying to recover from a porn addiction, a very bad one at that, I never had any idea that you could actually be addicted to internet Porn, as I'm setting here writing this I can think back to so much shit that my addiction and over stimulation have hurt my brain and life in a whole, I miss not being able to remember anything ever and not have to worry about seeing something that causes me to want to watch porn or masturbate, I am joining on day 10 of my 3rd retry, I welcome any support and probably need it, the first time I found out about this place was from my now ex-girlfriend (due to my other addiction of lying) who was trying to help me get over this addiction, she had a huge problem with me watching porn and since then I have tried numerous times to quit, the reason I relapsed was due to my weak will and thinking I could do it on my own, I lost the only person I've ever loved due to my arrogance and the fact I was scared to let her know and be disappointed in me, I'm sorry Kailey, guys I really want to do this and I am going crazy with all the shit it has caused, please help, I have no where else to turn to, 90 days is what I want to hit first

 

Thank you for the support so much, I have faith in you Luc, we can do this