(A bit of a long post. last time I posted on the nofap subreddit but the only responses I got were people telling me I don't need to write an essay.please read through this entirely if you can) Yo I'm 17 male started porn when I was 9 or 10. watching anal porn was my go to. it soon became old then I started listening to audio porn and it gave me the same rush as the porn I had seen day 1 but as always it got old aswell. Then I discovered futanari porn well not quite discovered rather seen it from a different angle. I had seen futanari on female porn it wasn't the hottest thing but I would watch it from time to time but it was just like regular porn nothing special. Until one day I was listening to audio porn I didn't even know what the futa tag meant I was just listening and then midway in the audio I realised what futa meant and unfortunately it was too late. it was a futanari on male audio where the listener performs oral sex for the futanari it was the hottest thing I had ever experienced. but I never was happy with myself doing it I stopped myself for a while and promised I would never return but in a few months when normal porn just wasn't doing it for me I came back watched it and again I was disappointed with myself it went like this on and off until I slowly delved deeper into this I was specifically attracted to the porn in which the futa is on top and the listener is being penetrated it aroused me but I hated it I hated it with a passion but I could stop it nor could I deny that it felt good. I even watched transwoman porn specifically the porn where again the transwoman is on top and the guy is the one being penetrated. I read some gay erotic posts and even those turned me on but just the sex. in real life I've never been attracted to men I'm not gay I know that for a fact because the few interactions I've had with women were just a different experience nothing sexual just seeing or talking to women. I think a big part of it is the country I live in, here I have almost no interaction with females it is actually a crime to have pre marital sex. I don't even see any women except for my family. And marriage is only possible after I have a job and my studies still have 6 years to complete. I've been scared to quit porn because then I wouldn't have any substitute for pleasure. I've kept this to myself because it is beyond taboo and if my parents found out they would probably dissown me. I think getting rid of my futa fetish is the motivation I need for quitting porn. But I really need someone who has gone through this and managed to quit to come forward and tell me that yes it can be cured the futa fetish won't stay if you quit pmo. Thank you so much if you managed to read this far any advice would be helpful.
Funtari is trans right? Look there are trans pornstars that look amazing so dont be hard to yourslef, you get attracted to thr feminime pArts and not to the thing down below. Like all of us you escolated to watch wierd catagories you thought you will never watch. To be honet after 70 days of fight with 1 slip i still think of porn and wierd thing i watched. It takes time but in the end your brain will reset to normal but its takes a lot of time!
Classic escalation. Do you have low self-esteem /confidence ? that seems to be a common trait too among people attracted to at least sissy /trans stuff.. your brain on porn is a great resource - read some of these articles they should have some helpful info https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ybo...-the-more-you-scratch-the-more-you-itch-2010/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/reb...n-or-gay-attracted-to-straight-porn-whats-up/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rel...nation-than-erotic-target-identity-inversion/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/reb...turbation-without-thoughtsrecent-achievement/
Look there are guys who want to be penetrated and they do that with their GF , but it seems like normal escalation, also because you dont have any interection with women or anyway to release yourself, porn become more dominant in your life. i am 23 never had GF or had sex and very large part of life porn was my means to escape the truth. i dont have a way to release myself but anyway i decided to take out the porn from my life and become a new man. And i still working on it and its hard as hell. Look , in the end the change only depends on you !!!! if you have Hocd , you need to take action! go to a therapy! You feel that porn doing to you damage ? Take an action and block it away!!! From your phone , pc , and so on.
I recommend Ad-guard for blocking porn. Let someone put a password that you dont know. you will feel better in the long run , anyway feel free to send us messages if you need more advice or help
Yes ofc you can recover. Am I a Sissy?? (Actually a good story with happy ending, trust me, read the whole thing)
Wow man thank you so so much this story really gives me hope and I really appreciate all the support I have received please understand that I am sharing a personal part of my life one I can't tell anyone else and after the r/nofap incident I was really hesitant but you guys are amazing just the right attitude you need for change just one question can I rewire without any sexual experience with a female but even if I can't I'm willing to wait 6 years
Well not really I'm a fairly masculine guy I've had facial hair ever since I was 14 have a good body and I seem to think I'm pretty attractive just my personal opinion though=) but the area I grew up in homosexuality isn't really accepted but a lot of the people around me are gay but only on a sexual level they don't actually like men in a romantic manner they're just a way to release sexual tension for them these men are going to go on and get married have families but some of them are looking for someone new to have sex with all the time and you have to watch out cause I've known a lot of young boys who were r*ped either when they were young or old but no one talks about this issue. And since I think I am attractive I have to be extra careful just the way some guys look at me makes my gut wrench.maybe it could be a factor but I highly doubt it. I only have a few good friends who I trust but they're good friends and I am somewhat of a leader in my circle of 5 friends no female friends though.
I was in heavily sissy hypno videos involved. The next step was that futanari stuff. I left it all behind me, for once and for good. I left my crossdress and AGP fetishes behind me, together with all kind of fantasies. Yes it's possible. I wrote it all down in my journal. Yes a lot to read
Yes you can get over it. I used to watch that stuff, and hadn't thought of the term 'futanari' at all for a number of years until just now lol! And sex outside of marriage goes against your beliefs/culture? If so, you can still recover. It may be possible to recover by transitioning away from porn and instead masturbating to healthy sexual fantasy. I realise this can be challenging without the experience and with unrealistic porn ideas, but maybe basing it off what you would see in a typical movie instead. Erotic but not obscene, you know? There is some good reading you can look into here which might help for recovering without sexual experience. You searched for virgin - Your Brain On Porn Don't feel ashamed or bad. Porn is designed to trick us into continued use by always providing something new. You're making a great start here, and once again, know that you can look back one day and think "oh yeah, I did that, but that's not me anymore". Best of luck!
Well let me say this, I certainly wasnt thinking about changing my bad habits at 17. I was wacking off so much and I didnt want to change. So that really shows a level of maturity and a willingness to change, which is what youll need in the days to come. If you really want to change, its going to be hard as fuck. You have to be able to check yourself at every impulse you have when you want to relapse and just stop. The first few days were always pretty rough, but once you get over them its a lot easier. Now ive been around the block a few times with nofap, and I mess up because I think about it to long and to hard my sexual fantasies that is, and then I make excuses. "Just this one time" im sure you get the picture. Getting away from fetishes I think in theory would mean having to cut yourself off from any thought process or anything that ties you too that. Like an interest in anime for instance, that you'd have to give up. Its like a drug addiction, a former drug user has to cut off all contact with friends if they have drug problems, because it could cause a relapse. So think hard about any triggers you have, anything that sets you off the path. Maintaining focus on your goals, and this is a daily exercise, maybe watch nofap videos on youtube, remember your reasons why you dont want to be this way anymore. You can also do mental exercises, get the weakness out of your mind on other things, which may help you practice for the real issue. I think the biggest thing though is not thinking about it at all, which I know is way easier said than done but you can do this. Find a topic of interest that you enjoy, research it, and think about it throughout your day when you have periods of boredom where your mind my slide back into your issue. Do not think about it ever! I dont know what type of availablity you have in your country to this, but I found something that has greatly helped me with masterbation and with my interest in watching porn. Its basically a bunch of edible metals like gold, silver, palladium, copper, rhodium, etc. Like magnesium or iron which is apart of our diets and very essential, so is too all these metals. We are extremely deficient in these metals as its not apart of our diet typically and so it can cause some mental issues. Studies have shown most people are deficient in magnesium alone. Its called ORMUS, its a natural medicine for focus, sleep, mental clarity, energy providing. Thats what I bought it for and this last week of using it I've not had any desire to watch porn or masterbate and I havent even been trying. Its worth a look into, but youll have to see what type of availability is where you are at, but I bought mine on an app called etsy. Best of luck to you.
