Hardcore porn addiction - a goose chase against my own mind

Hello everyone,

I am very much delighted to have discovered this community. I have been suffering from addiction to Hardcore porn for sometime now.

It is not that serious in the amount of times I watch porn (though sometimes I do spend quite a lot of time doing that) but I still feel my mind is corrupted by it. In my personal life I am quite a sensitive emotional guy, and I consider myself to be a feminist. However, I sometimes have episodes where I see the most rough, degrading, hardcore and even overtly anti-feminist Porn.

This worries me not only because I think it's morally wrong, but because I am overcome by a desire that is so against what I believe in and feel comfortable with in my everyday life. It makes me feel so Helpless! Like I am an animal or a child with no self control.

What finally made me come forth is the start of my relationship with a woman I really really like (maybe even love). Our relationship is great, and the sex is good but I feel like every now and then the sex is tainted with these thoughts and it hurts my connection with her. Also I have the occasional erctile dysfunction.

All this to say - anyone with a similar experience? I will really like some help, and if you can't provide it - just not feeling alone would be nice.

Thank you!!