Happy Be-A-Better-Me Journal

LB has been working on some crochet projects. They've been keeping it busy. LB loves the proccess of creating amigurumi figures. Here's some recent stuff it crocheted.

 

Thanks for the encouragement. Yes it's not the end of the world, but can't help feel a little bit down. Going to try to fast the next two days to get by diet and fasting kicked off again. Will take it slow and work up to four day weekly fasts like I was doing before. Yes, I'm hopeful for the new year. Hope we are able to meet our goals this year!

Thanks so much!

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So LB doesn't know what its daily schedule will look like, but it wants to include the following for sure:

Vipassana meditation
Loving-kindness meditation
Reflections on repulsiveness meditation
Cold shower
Ice vest
OMAD or fasting
Swahili
Crochet
Workout
Walk

LB finished another ami project last night.

 

Hey thanks. I still feel like a beginner but gradually learning how to make my projects better. I'm thinking about a whale for my next project. Wow that queen and guard project sounds like a lot of fun! Definitely to advanced for me though haha. I struggle with changing colors like that.

Nice been thinking about maybe doing a blanket too or a scarf. Something not ami related. What stitch are you primarily using for the blanket? Always wondered if it was better to stick to smaller stitches because the larger ones like triple crochet have a lot of hole and might make the blanket or scarf less warming. Been considering using double crochet.

 

LB also wants to work with weekly goals. Current goals its thinking about adding to its week:

Fast at least two days
One day meditation retreat

During meditation today a memory from LB's childhood arose along with some anger. During middle school LB was overweight and one day a girl in its class made fun of it for wearing a shirt that was tight. LB didn't know it still carried resentment from this incident. It's happy it was able to release it. Emotional healing is important in becoming a better person and taking our lives back from the unhealthy habits that have controlled us for so long. LB is happy to be engaged in that process, though it is difficult sometimes.

LB has also been thinking about how much power a careless word has to create deep last harm in others. It wants to be more careful with its words this coming year.

 

Tentative goal list:

Daily goals:

No-nos

No PMO
No processed foods
No bread or flour-based products
No sugar

Restrictions

One Meal A Day (OMAD) or fasting
Wake up at 5:30 AM

Daily Self Care

Exercise
Go for a walk
5 minutes exercise bike
1 hour ice vest
At least 30 seconds cold shower
30 minutes of cleaning

Meditation

Concentration meditation
Reflections on repulsiveness meditation
Loving-kindness meditation
Practice mindfulness during the day

Hobbies

30 minutes of Swahili a day
At least 1 hour of crochet a day

Weekly Goals:

1 day meditation retreat
2 days fasting

Monthly Goals:
Lose at least 10 pounds
Make Valentine's Day amigurumi for family

 

Ah yes, granny squares. Forgot about those haha. I really don't know much about crocheting blankets and stuff like that, I've mostly stuck to amigurumi. Wanna expand my crocheting horizons though!

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Ate today after LB said it would fast. Guess today is going to be an OMAD day instead. LB is a little frustrated. It feels like if it just got one day of fasting done this week it would help kick off longer fasts. So new goal, fasting tomorrow. NO EXCEPTIONS. Everyone reading this please keep me accountable on this goal. Thanks, you're all awesome!

 

Today's check-in

Daily goals:

No-nos
No PMO ✅
No processed foods ❌
No bread or flour-based products ✅
No sugar ✅

Restrictions
One Meal A Day (OMAD) or fasting ✅
Wake up at 5:30 AM ✅

Daily Self Care
Exercise ✅
Go for a walk ✅
5 minutes exercise bike ✅
1 hour ice vest ✅
At least 30 seconds cold shower ❌
30 minutes of cleaning ✅

Meditation
Concentration meditation ✅
Reflections on repulsiveness meditation ✅
Loving-kindness meditation ✅
Practice mindfulness during the day ✅

Hobbies
30 minutes of Swahili a day ✅
At least 1 hour of crochet a day ✅

1st Week Goals:
1 day meditation retreat ✅
2 days fasting

January Goals:
Lose at least 10 pounds
Make Valentine's Day amigurumi for family

1st Quarter Goals:
One 5 day fast
One 2 day meditation retreat

 

Oh no! Haha . Still going strong on my fast. Past 24 hours now, but I want to fast a whole calendar day. So I want to fast for the rest of the day too. And if I don't eat until 1PM tomorrow that'll be a 48 hour fast, which would be nice!

Doing well! I've had two cans of flavored carbonated water and some tea haha. So far not hungry. 25 hours into the fast. So already completed a 24 hour fast, but I want to fast for a whole calendar day so I have around 10 hours left.

 

Today's check-in

Daily goals:

No-nos
No PMO ✅
No processed foods ✅
No bread or flour-based products ✅
No sugar ✅

Restrictions
One Meal A Day (OMAD) or fasting ✅
Wake up at 5:30 AM ✅

Daily Self Care
Exercise ✅
Go for a walk ✅
5 minutes exercise bike ✅
1 hour ice vest ✅
At least 30 seconds cold shower ✅
30 minutes of cleaning ✅

Meditation
Concentration meditation ✅
Reflections on repulsiveness meditation ✅
Loving-kindness meditation ✅
Practice mindfulness during the day ✅

Hobbies
30 minutes of Swahili a day ✅
At least 1 hour of crochet a day ✅

1st Week Goals:
1 day meditation retreat ✅
2 days fasting

January Goals:
Lose at least 10 pounds
Make Valentine's Day amigurumi for family

1st Quarter Goals:
One 5 day fast
One 2 day meditation retreat

 

Restarted bodyweight primer workouts. Completed first two days. Tomorrow's workout.

 

Do it! A disciplined life is a happy life! I know that sounds hokey haha, but it's true.

Thank you Ūruz! Your support has been instrumental in allowing me to make the progress I have made in dieting and losing weight. It's easier to ignore the food cravings when you know you have people rooting for you.

 

LB successfully completed its 1 day fast. It's about 43 hours into the fast. Aiming to break the fast around 1 pm EST, that will be 48 hours and it'll meet its weekly goals of a 2 day fast!