Got problems where my eyes seem to go quited watching porn since 09/11/17

Hi

Well i have got a problem my eyes seem to end up looking at mens and womans private parts i really do feel messed up in the head.Ive only watched straight porn and since an early age.I hate it when it happens i dont want it to happen but it happens.

Ive watched no porn or masturbated since 09/11/17 since finding out a little about nofap.I did have a relapse and watched porn but this time i felt disgusted and that i had really let myself down.So ive left it alone since 09/11/17.

Does it stop happening when it happens im trying so much to look at something else i feel so ashamed and embarassed.

I also feel uncomfortable if i see another man with his top off it even happens when im watching tv.

 

Ok yeah ive not used porn for so long when it happens i think to myself no im not looking there but its like my eyes are drawn there while im trying not to.It feels like i have done damage to my brain.

im just hoping it stops happening

 

Yes i do have ocd but this confuses me i could be talking to another man and in the end he has to cross his legs its not like im staring at that area but part of me is while im forcing it away.I feel gay straight away and i hate that i dont want that plus i feel very dirty.Then with a woman my eyes could just notice an area then i feel dirty im not starring at it but just for them couple of seconds i noticed it.Then again i feel very dirty.

 

Yes like you said im forcing my eyes to where they should be at the time like the face but its like the corner of my eye is picking up on that area.Im quite new myself to quitting porn i know ive gone a long stretch without it and eventualy it gets easier with time.Towards the end i was only using it when i thought i needed to releave myself but now 100% stay away from it.Its my first thread on this forum but i felt like i needed advice so i took the plunge and made the thread.Ive quit drinking myself i dont know for how long but its a very long time and i feel better for it.What gets me is what people may think if they pick up on it.And yeah ive gone without it for so long as i want my mind to sort itself out if it can.

Thanks

 

Ok freddie ill do my best and im not a very sociable person to be honest i spend most of my time on my own.I was the same when i was a lot younger but then started going out more but then got into drugs.I havent touched drugs for years now but i have a bad anxiety problem which has always held me back.

But yeah ill try thanks