Got off and feel like crap today...

Sucks for the bad day - I feel you. Look at it as a thing that happened: not a good thing, not a bad thing, just...a thing. That happened. Do what you need to to feel good for today, it's the best we can do.

 

Sorry to hear that man. Just letting you know that youre situation is DEFINITELY normal for people recovering from sexual addiction. There is a distinct difference between wanting to have an orgasm because youre tired of feeling like shit from withdrawl and genuinely having enough organic sexual energy to drive you to have sex. I thoroughly believe that as sex addicts a lot of us do not know what true organic libido feels like and we only think were horny when in realith its just iur brains trying to get more dopamine to maintain our addiction. Listen to your body and understand that healthy functional sex does not leave you feeling like crap. In my opinion I think a nice long break from any sexual stimulation is due; recovery is a delicate process and you need to be either all in or all out. We cant sneak around the rules of recovery; especially when it comes to having an orgasm. No one "sort of" has an orgasm; either the muscles and organs are being used or they arent. Please give yourself time to heal....its going to be quite a while....im still waiting for my stuff to get better too but you just gotta trust that if you abstain until your body is healed and start reaponding differently to your urges youll come to find you have a lot more natural energy and drive to express your love through sex. Plus not to mention you have 1000x more energy and are a lot more fun in bed. Rest up and keep moving forward, nothing is forever.